"I Feel the Star" #writing #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

As I finish my first class of my second class with the Barnes Foundation in Art History I am inspired to this writing. Many messages are sent in art. Which ones are real? Which ones do you connect with?

Image by Tanya from Pixabay 

I Feel the Star

As I sit on the grass

I feel the star I don’t wear on my forehead

the only place of peace

at this hour to write 

without emotional pain and torture

for the moment

I hurriedly grab at my thoughts,

easier when young

will I die early from this

I don’t think age matters to abuse

I find now in this day of my life

Do I write to send 

messages of help

or is creativity I so desperately

wish to convey

how witty I am to do this

I’m smarter than they think

as I get it all out

so graciously on paper for all to read

as I learn how far some will go

to create their message of art

I am inspired to

Though I don’t wear a star

I feel the life long

dragging of survival on my body

mind and health

How art keeps us going 

to tell on we can

I’m not of Jewish decent

but my pain is so near theirs

I can feel mosts pains

I understand 

Resume #lorijeanfinnila #producer #resume

 I just updated my resume and I’m proud to share it.

Resume

"God's Hand Came Down and Saved Me That Day" #writing #lorijeanfinnila #newsong? #singersongwriter

 Of all the abuse in my life I've finally been able to put it into words. It's amazing how hard my life has been and because I haven't been able to get these words out.

"God's Hand Came Down and Saved Me That Day"

Image by Treharris from Pixabay 

He led me into thin ice

It was a cold day

I wanted to play

I was fearless

I was ferocious

I would lead myself astray

I could be led far

I could be led astray

I was led too far that day

The words that are so hard to express

I had to learn to say

I bobbed up and down

Screaming for help

No one was around

He didn’t reach out to help

He laughed and smiled

Like the horse he threw me off of

Like the bike he tossed me off of onto the street

Like the rocks he wanted me to trip on in the water 

Like the ones I sled over too hard

That he patiently waited for me to pass out to

Like the police he waited to take me when I was drugged

But he didn’t because he said I looked too young

But instead that day

I reached out, I cried out for help inside

And I got an answer

I went around the thin ice

As he laughed through me in shock

I walked through the thin ice I couldn’t pass

As he was amazed as I heard it crack

As I was fearless and ferocious

I led myself through this with God’s hand

Why would my life be saved once again

I was fearless

I was ferocious

I would lead myself astray

God’s hand came down

And saved me that day

It Can Only Be Heaven by Lori Jean Finnila #musicvideo #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #ItCanOnlyBeHeaven

Song out on or about May 17th, 2023 at most major music streaming services. 

"It Can Only Be Heaven" Press Release #songrelease #lorijeanfinnila #press #singersongwriter

 Find the press release below for the song release "It Can Only Be Heaven" coming out on or about May 17, 2023 at most major streaming sites. A bit of the press release is below.

"It Can Only Be Heaven" Press Release

A Journey From Pain to Hope Through A Spiritual Connection From A Dark Place

Lori is guided by the universe. This song is a 360 degree journey from her pain from a dark place to a light place. It starts with her own personal dark noun of a dark corner and then turned to love, then a journey, then an ending of hope and love. 

Song at: SoundCloud.com and under ‘radio friendly’ tracks in the sidebar in Web view.

“I’ll Say Bye To The Past” #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Photo by Tentes on Pixabay.

“I’ll Say Bye To The Past” by Lori

 Verse

It’s funny because we’ve been so close

So much alike 

But still so far away

In our minds

I write this now for you

If you could see me now

How much I’m like you

And what I do

You’d laugh

Chorus

I’ll say bye to the past 

Though I’ll remember it in a gentle way

I’ll always remember you

But I have to say good bye today

Verse

I’ve felt a shadow like you

It’s warmth so strong

I’ve seen the life

I’ve not seen in you

That I so appreciate 

Chorus

I’ll say bye

To the past 

Though I’ll remember it

In a gentle way

Verse

The laughs that weren’t real

I can see now

I’m glad I have intelligence

I can use with no trepidation 

Oooo oooo ooo

How much I’ve learned

That has changed today

I’ve learned from a child

How beautiful evolvement is

Chorus

Verse

The sun rises in a new way

I can’t believe 

how much I appreciate each day

Bridge

I love myself like never before

I’ve found I’m such a good person

And have always been

It’s ok if life or people

Don’t understand me

Chorus

“In An Imperfect World” #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 I’ve written another poem that I will turn into a song. It’s the idea of sitting on the sad thought of regret of our choices feeling we missed our dreams.

Photo by Pudelinchen at Pixabay.

“In An Imperfect World “

In an imperfect world

Sometimes the noise is so loud it shatters

The fragile, decent, happy thoughts, our dreams

It is more powerful than our happy mind

It takes control of our happy path, 

our life, it’s decisions, it’s outcome

It’s journey

In an imperfect world

Our dreams can be so close

Feel so close

Yet in reality we are letting them go by

Saying we have to let them go by

In an imperfect world

Of order, command, reality, nostalgia 

Whichever we pick to call it

There is a reason we have to make practical decisions 

Money, order, just the plain ruling of the land 

We feel guilt

We blame ourselves

But if we have to think that short of time

Before we’ve found the imperfect world

It wasn’t our dream

Our destiny, supposed to be

It should go in flow 

With unity

In the universe

Be the way we we are supposed to be

"So I Can Go On Living" #newsong #recording #alternativelifestyle #podcast #singersongwriter

Listen to the podcast about moments I share in this song. Free song "So I Can Go On Living" at Google Drive and SoundCloud under Lori Jean Finnila.

Podcast at Spotify, iHeartRadio, Apple Podcasts, Audible, Pandora, TuneIn, Blubrry, Radio Public, and Google Podcasts

Image by Hrayr Movsisyan from Pixabay 

Verse

The early morn brings hope

Though there's quiet it's not somber

The patters of traffic in my presence are light 

The softness brings comfort

To a pessimistic morning mind

Chorus

So I can go on living

Verse

The morning skies are gray but stable

They don't frighten me yet today

I won't focus till my mind lets me

Bring in a new positive day

Chorus

Verse

I work hard daily to this

I know I can come past these moods 

I've proven myself to this

Time and time again

Chorus

Verse

It's hard work keeping faith 

It's scary, lonely, dark, and cold sometimes

But hope I always feel

As I churn my brain open in the morning air

Bridge

I know how to feel the positivity

I work so hard to bring a new warmth into my body

So I feel love, securement, devotion and giving 

Back to the world that gives me so much peace so I can go on living.

Chorus

4x repeat

Happy Easter Poem #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #grateful

Perhaps I can turn this into a song. My daily struggle with positivity is documented in this poem/song as I try to stay positive toward the thought of losing my eye sight. I make food that brings inspiration to my mind to stay skipping with new tastes of spices and juices to keep me enlightened, otherwise I probably wouldn't eat. 

Photo be reenablack at Pixabay.

Poem (haven't named it yet or picked a chorus-writer's world)

The early morn brings hope

Though there's quiet it's not somber

The patters of traffic in my presence are light 

 The softness brings comfort

To a pessimistic morning mind

The morning skies are gray but stable

They don't frighten me yet today

I won't focus till my mind lets me

Bring in a new positive day

I work hard daily to this

I know I can come past these moods 

I've proven myself to this

Time and time again

It's hard work keeping faith 

It's scary, lonely, dark, and cold sometimes

But hope I always feel

As I churn my brain open in the morning air

I know how to feel the positivity

I work so hard to bring a new warmth into my body

So I feel love, securement, devotion and giving 

Back to the world that gives me so much peace so I can go on living.