Happy New Year!!!
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay
I'm singing "Tears Turn" for my son. I hope all your wishes and dreams come true.
My mild brain injury from anesthesia during a routine procedure in 1990 led me to the beauty to my music from natural foods, yoga exercising and other forms of exercise, and spiritual connecting. It's here to be inspired by my music and a bit of conversation.
Happy New Year!!!
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay
I have even a NEWER version of this song! So proud. I know it sounds a lot better. I'm still not completely satisfied with the chorus, but extremely close to the entirety and love all the verses now. I picked some great words to work with.
'Grafitti' Image by Capri23auto from Pixabay
'Grafitti' Image
Maybe this photo somehow connects the broken 'street people.'
"Till Then"
Verse
I faint when I think of the time lost
at the time of the past
after I was taken advantage of
after I was drugged
Chorus
I know one day I’ll confront
I'll walk so high and proud that day
and be rectified till then
Verse
I said no one said he needed it
I couldn't fight
Couldn’t get away from it
thereafter.
Chorus
I know one day I’ll confront
I'll walk so high and proud that day
and be rectified till then
Verse
I freeze now though I’ve never moved
I wish I knew then what I know now
how well planned
possibly sometimes just to hurt
what they didn’t realize
is that they broke me
Verse
It all started with a simple plan
Make me look crazy though I made no sense
the thing was too wild
even from coming from me
Bridge
Was followed for many years
Brought fright and physical pain
I'll walk like an adult
See myself stand tall before God
Who knows it all
ooooooo
Chorus
I know one day I’ll confront
I'll walk so high and proud that day
and be rectified till then
ooooooo
In my shoes
I’ll see myself stand tall
before God who knows it all
Till then
ooooooo
Till then
till then
Though it's still a mouthful, I think I've brought this song to something you can understand and more lyrical. It's hard where it's coming from my personal story trying to make it a bit universal, but I get closer. I think the hardest part is that it may have started when I lost my child in my stomach in its second trimester being ripped from me, when I was forced and drugged then, possibly lined up with other little girls that were wards of the state and/or human trafficking victims (those very well protected of these procedures at that time, that's why I tag #spotlight) ( if you know the story), possibly as a way to track me as a woman, which closed me off.
To those that broke me.
This picture is how I felt, never so alone in my whole life, and it went on for many years.
"Till Then" redone
Verse
I faint when I think of the time lost
at the time of the past
after I was taken advantage of
after I was drugged
Chorus
I know one day I will talk
I'll walk so high confront those
and be so proud that day
and be rectified till then
Verse
I said no one said he needed it
I couldn't fight
one took away my protection
I froze though I had never moved.
Chorus
I know one day I will talk
I'll walk so high
confront those and be so proud that day
and be rectified till then
Verse
I wish I knew then what I know now
how well planned
possibly sometimes just to hurt
what they didn’t realize
is that they broke me
Chorus
I know one day I will talk
I'll walk so high
confront those and be so proud that day
and be rectified till then
Verse
It all started with a simple plan
Make me look crazy though I made no sense
I didn’t know what happened to me
the thing was too wild
even for me
Bridge
Was followed for many years
Brought fright and physical pain
I'll walk like an adult
See myself stand tall before God
Who knows it all
ooooooo
Chorus
I know one day I will talk
I'll walk so high
confront those and be so proud that day
and be rectified till then
ooooooo
Till then
In my shoes
I’ll see myself stand tall
before God who knows it all
Till then
ooooooo
Till then
till then
Verse
When he comes home
When he lets me know he's here
When he comes close
He watches to see me smile
Make sure I have what I need
That I've been happy while he's away
Chorus #1
He is not that man
That did this to me
Although you make fun of me
He makes me happy
Verse
I go to duck thinking they'll be a hit
Or a joke to it
He grasps in astonishment
And shows me he is not that man
Chorus #2
He is not that man that did this to me
Every time someone hurts me
It won't be the same way
He makes me happy
Verse
He's so sweet
Even with everything wrong with me
He makes me feel so pretty
Bridge
I remember him
Even though he's not here
He still makes a difference
Chorus #2
Chorus #1
Ooooo
He makes me happy
He makes me happy
Ooooo, oooo
Ooooooooo ooo
Ooo oo
Repeat
This song came from being homebound. Creepy the intense lyrics I can get at this time.
Photo by Andrea Piacquadio from Pexels
Lyrics:
Verse
They come clean
Take care of me
I know I can get
Past this
Do they have to know
For me to make this happen
Chorus
Oh God, what's happening to me
Where do I go
I find myself trapped
In abnormal situations
I barely see
I'm scared
I'm ashamed
Verse
I'm tired of seeing disgusting things around me
I'm tired of seeing disgusting things on me
I know myself
I know this is not me
Chorus
Verse
How will I take care of myself
Will they come take me away
That's what he wants
But I can fight this
Bridge
Where's humanity
I'm locked in a life I don't know
Do I have one more strength
Do I have one more time to get out of this
How many times
Will I let this go around in my head
Without making a move
When will I move to get me out
Chorus
What's happening to me….
repeat
I wrote this song that seems to go with a love theme of relying on a man.
Lyrics:
He Holds Me Together
He holds my glue together of who I am
I don't have to see him to get bored,
Old, every day
Chorus
I still hold my hand
Up to the window
Looking for the place
He holds me together in
Verse
I go so far
My mind goes so far out there
I know why, I'm not sure exactly where it goes
I know he'll be there to catch it
So I won't die
Chorus
Verse
So much has happened in the past
That has caused this damage
Even when I'm frightened in my worst fear
He is still there not bored or scared of me
Bridge
When it's all over
The strongest of moments
Where he reaches me
I go past to curl up in my memories
By the heater as a little girl
Somehow I seem to stay alive
Even thrive cause of this place
He holds me together in
Chorus