Singer and Songwriter

 Happy New Year!!! Image by  Gerd Altmann  from  Pixabay   I'm singing "Tears Turn" for my son. I hope all your wishes and dreams come true.

 I have even a NEWER version of this song! So proud. I know it sounds a lot better. I'm still not completely satisfied with the chorus, but extremely close to the entirety and love all the verses  now. I picked some great words to work with. 'Grafitti' Image by  Capri23auto  from  Pixabay 'Grafitti' Image  Maybe this photo somehow connects the broken 'street people.' "Till Then" Verse  I faint when I think of the time lost  at the time of the past  after I was taken advantage of after I was drugged Chorus  I know one day I’ll confront I'll walk so high and proud that day and be rectified till then  Verse  I said no one said he needed it  I couldn't fight  Couldn’t get away from it thereafter. Chorus  I know one day I’ll confront I'll walk so high and proud that day and be rectified till then  Verse I freeze now though I’ve never moved I wish I knew then what I know now how well planned possibly sometimes just to hurt what they didn’t re

Though it's still a mouthful, I think I've brought this song to something you can understand and more lyrical. It's hard where it's coming from my personal story trying to make it a bit universal, but I get closer. I think the hardest part is that it may have started when I lost my child in my stomach in its second trimester being ripped from me, when I was forced and drugged then, possibly lined up with other little girls that were wards of the state and/or human trafficking victims (those very well protected of these procedures at that time, that's why I tag #spotlight) ( if you know the story), possibly as a way to track me as a woman, which closed me off.  To those that broke me. This picture is how I felt, never so alone in my whole life, and it went on for many years. "Till Then" redone Verse  I faint when I think of the time lost  at the time of the past  after I was taken advantage of after I was drugged Chorus  I know one day I will talk I'll

 Verse When he comes home When he lets me know he's here When he comes close He watches to see me smile Make sure I have what I need That I've been happy while he's away Chorus #1 He is not that man That did this to me Although you make fun of me He makes me happy Verse I go to duck thinking they'll be a hit Or a joke to it He grasps in astonishment And shows me he is not that man Chorus #2 He is not that man that did this to me Every time someone hurts me It won't be the same way He makes me happy Verse He's so sweet Even with everything wrong with me He makes me feel so pretty Bridge I remember him Even though he's not here He still makes a difference Chorus #2 Chorus #1 Ooooo He makes me happy He makes me happy Ooooo, oooo Ooooooooo ooo Ooo oo Repeat

This song came from being homebound. Creepy the intense lyrics I can get at this time. Photo by  Andrea Piacquadio  from  Pexels Lyrics:   Verse They come clean Take care of me I know I can get Past this Do they have to know For me to make this happen   Chorus Oh God, what's happening to me Where do I go I find myself trapped In abnormal situations I barely see I'm scared I'm ashamed   Verse I'm tired of seeing disgusting things around me I'm tired of seeing disgusting things on me I know myself I know this is not me   Chorus   Verse How will I take care of myself Will they come take me away That's what he wants But I can fight this   Bridge Where's humanity I'm locked in a life I don't know Do I have one more strength Do I have one more time to get out of this   How many times Will I let this go around in my head Without making a move When will I move to get me out   Chorus   What's happening to me…. repeat

 I wrote this song that seems to go with a love theme of relying on a man. Image by  Bingo Naranjo  from  Pixabay   Lyrics: He Holds Me Together He holds my glue together of who I am I don't have to see him to get bored, Old, every day   Chorus I still hold my hand Up to the window Looking for the place He holds me together in   Verse I go so far My mind goes so far out there I know why, I'm not sure exactly where it goes I know he'll be there to catch it So I won't die   Chorus   Verse So much has happened i n the past That has caused this damage Even when I'm frightened i n my worst fear He is still there n ot bored or scared of me   Bridge When it's all over The strongest of moments Where he reaches me I go past to curl up in my memories By the heater as a little girl   Somehow I seem to stay alive Even thrive cause of this place He holds me together in   Chorus