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New Year's "Tears Turn" live video #lorijeanfinnila #singing #singersongwriter

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 Happy New Year!!! Image by  Gerd Altmann  from  Pixabay   I'm singing "Tears Turn" for my son. I hope all your wishes and dreams come true.

Even Newer Update "Till Then" #sexual #physical #mental #abuse #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #brokenspirit #abandoned #lost

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 I have even a NEWER version of this song! So proud. I know it sounds a lot better. I'm still not completely satisfied with the chorus, but extremely close to the entirety and love all the verses  now. I picked some great words to work with. 'Grafitti' Image by  Capri23auto  from  Pixabay 'Grafitti' Image  Maybe this photo somehow connects the broken 'street people.' "Till Then" Verse  I faint when I think of the time lost  at the time of the past  after I was taken advantage of after I was drugged Chorus  I know one day I’ll confront I'll walk so high and proud that day and be rectified till then  Verse  I said no one said he needed it  I couldn't fight  Couldn’t get away from it thereafter. Chorus  I know one day I’ll confront I'll walk so high and proud that day and be rectified till then  Verse I freeze now though I’ve never moved I wish I knew then what I know now how well planned possibly sometimes just to hurt what they didn’t re

"Till Then" #lyrics #redone #sexual #physical and #mental #abuse #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

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Though it's still a mouthful, I think I've brought this song to something you can understand and more lyrical. It's hard where it's coming from my personal story trying to make it a bit universal, but I get closer. I think the hardest part is that it may have started when I lost my child in my stomach in its second trimester being ripped from me, when I was forced and drugged then, possibly lined up with other little girls that were wards of the state and/or human trafficking victims (those very well protected of these procedures at that time, that's why I tag #spotlight) ( if you know the story), possibly as a way to track me as a woman, which closed me off.  To those that broke me. This picture is how I felt, never so alone in my whole life, and it went on for many years. "Till Then" redone Verse  I faint when I think of the time lost  at the time of the past  after I was taken advantage of after I was drugged Chorus  I know one day I will talk I'll

Tears Turn song video Lori Jean Finnila

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He Makes Me Happy #singer #lyrics #rock

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 Verse When he comes home When he lets me know he's here When he comes close He watches to see me smile Make sure I have what I need That I've been happy while he's away Chorus #1 He is not that man That did this to me Although you make fun of me He makes me happy Verse I go to duck thinking they'll be a hit Or a joke to it He grasps in astonishment And shows me he is not that man Chorus #2 He is not that man that did this to me Every time someone hurts me It won't be the same way He makes me happy Verse He's so sweet Even with everything wrong with me He makes me feel so pretty Bridge I remember him Even though he's not here He still makes a difference Chorus #2 Chorus #1 Ooooo He makes me happy He makes me happy Ooooo, oooo Ooooooooo ooo Ooo oo Repeat

"What’s Happening to Me?" #newsong #lyrics #homebound #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

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This song came from being homebound. Creepy the intense lyrics I can get at this time. Photo by  Andrea Piacquadio  from  Pexels Lyrics:   Verse They come clean Take care of me I know I can get Past this Do they have to know For me to make this happen   Chorus Oh God, what's happening to me Where do I go I find myself trapped In abnormal situations I barely see I'm scared I'm ashamed   Verse I'm tired of seeing disgusting things around me I'm tired of seeing disgusting things on me I know myself I know this is not me   Chorus   Verse How will I take care of myself Will they come take me away That's what he wants But I can fight this   Bridge Where's humanity I'm locked in a life I don't know Do I have one more strength Do I have one more time to get out of this   How many times Will I let this go around in my head Without making a move When will I move to get me out   Chorus   What's happening to me…. repeat

"He Holds Me Together" #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

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 I wrote this song that seems to go with a love theme of relying on a man. Image by  Bingo Naranjo  from  Pixabay   Lyrics: He Holds Me Together He holds my glue together of who I am I don't have to see him to get bored, Old, every day   Chorus I still hold my hand Up to the window Looking for the place He holds me together in   Verse I go so far My mind goes so far out there I know why, I'm not sure exactly where it goes I know he'll be there to catch it So I won't die   Chorus   Verse So much has happened i n the past That has caused this damage Even when I'm frightened i n my worst fear He is still there n ot bored or scared of me   Bridge When it's all over The strongest of moments Where he reaches me I go past to curl up in my memories By the heater as a little girl   Somehow I seem to stay alive Even thrive cause of this place He holds me together in   Chorus

"Slow Down" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

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 Just finished this morning. Image by  Karen Warfel  from  Pixabay  

"My Virtue" #newsong #singersongwriter #lorijeanfinnila

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 I just drummed this up. Hoping it doesn't sound too much like a book. I can continue to work on it. Image by  olekowy  from  Pixabay  

Make-Believe World #updated #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

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Make-Believe World Lyrics Verse Those pose Those move, we watch We feel to appear freedom No worry from conflicts Chorus Jump into A make-believe  world This is where we dream Where nothing ever happens to us Verse We try so hard only to imagine What it's like Feeling no fear or pain Chorus Verse We know, we're told, we should be careful We're warned of harm Whom has had it done So many times Bridge Let go Feel free Even if only just for one moment Just the same as then well before Chorus

"My Waltz" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #alternativelifestyle #podcast

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 Free draft of song " Where's My Waltz? " Though I have passion, I still crave romance too. Image by  Fathromi Ramdlon  from  Pixabay   Lyrics: Verse All these things of nonsense Get in my way I’m trying to push myself To a place where I’m supposed to be Though I crave passion I still do too to romance Chorus Where’s my waltz? I need love It’s so important  To me too Where’s my waltz? Verse Tip on my toes in my head Till I see myself falling off a cliff I’m busy in my head Don’t appear to have time For anything else Bridge Incomprehensible images  controllingly sit before me I’m left confused What is my next step Chorus Verse Perhaps it’s a protector A guard a knight A self-defense mechanism It’s embedded so deep inside me I can’t see it Maybe this is why This is seen to you So strongly this way Chorus If we've lost everything in life, we still have pen and paper. Listen to where the song came from in this podcast "Power of Words" for free at iHeartRadio Pod

"No, No, No" #mysexy #song #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

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 Really liking this one. Needed a sexy picture. Image by  Gordon Johnson  from  Pixabay   No, No, No Lyrics: Verse I say no Though that's not what I mean I want you When  I capture your presence near me    Chorus I can't do or think what  I want to I was meant to never be this way I was in the wrong place I was taught to say no Verse My mind keeps coming Back to you Your words, your breath The way I watch you move Picturing you inside me   Chorus I can't do or think what I want to I was meant to never be this way I was in the wrong place I was taught to say no   Verse I shudder when I see you leave Knowing I'll never see you again I imagine everything you'd do Your touch your taste Your mouth inside of mine   Chorus  I can't do what I want I promised I would never do Never thinking on my own Standing all alone   I can't do or think what I want to I was meant to never be this way I wa s born in the wrong place I was taught to say no   No, no, no repeat

Homelessness and God #songs #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #alternativelifestyle #podcast

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I found "God Has All the Power" matches up well with "He Walks Among Us." Image by  Here and now, unfortunately, ends my journey on Pixabay . Free drafts of songs " God Has All the Power " and " He Walks Among Us ." Listen to Lori's songwriting process and a bit about her life in this podcast at Anchor , Spotify Podcasts , Apple Podcasts , iHeartRadio Podcasts , Pandora Podcasts , and Audible .  

Updated Song "Safer Than" #release #EP #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #alternativelifestyle #podcast

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  This is an update of the song "Safer Than" as I get closer to the finished EP. Free song Updated " Safer Than " Listen to the podcast about the song and Lori's life for free at Anchor , Spotify Podcasts , Audible , iHeartRadio Podcasts , Pandora Podcasts , and Apple Podcasts . Lyrics: Verse Dog wrestles on my ears Till they look melted like wax Behind the dark, cold corner Of the cellar stairs More powerful than the masochist   Chorus Safer than What we go through In the long run Better than what Could have been   Verse Men that want to Put their hands Down my bloomies More powerful than the smugglers   Chorus Safer than What we go through In the long run Better than what Could have been   Verse Thrust onto my bed With a cracked neck Safer than my daddy   Bridge Unwanted babies Lined up by little girls Safer for the priests Spotlight   Chorus Safer than What we go through In the long run Better than what Could have been