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Friday, December 27, 2019

Update One New Song The Beast of Heaven and Different Name to The Rain: Tenth Song Done #album #richinwar #lorijeanfinnila Leave This World #abuse

 I added The Beast of Heaven (at the bottom) song because I felt it was smart. I was having trouble recording Simplicity. A bit of change in the lyrics to It Wasn't Going to Change as well about a girl leaving a marriage that she entered to abandon abuse in her home. The entire updated playlist so far is here: Soundcloud


I remember my mom tying me to the cellar stairs when I was still in diapers. My aunt would come over and see me and be in tears and my mother would talk her thinking it was okay. My sister would come home from school and want to cry and my mother would teach her to ignore me.

Later it would be a closet and then no Novocaine at the dentist; it would make me strong she would say. This is where I came up with this song. I may make some minor changes down the road.

Photo courtesy NY Times


Ten Songs for Album

I Am Loved
The Rain
Rich in War (title song)
Life Before You
Am I Awake
Simplicity
It Wasn't Going to Change (new as well)
Way Too Early
Valentine (decided to use - I need to work on the composition)
Vanity and the Heart





Leave This World (video)


Verse
I was told if you want to live
you have to fight
I was taught
when the rain comes down
quiet in the night
listen to the sound
of the most important things


Chorus
Oh girl
what do you want
to leave this world
what you've been taught to fight
what you've been forced into

Verse
Some would come
to take my beauty
some would come
to take my virginity

Chorus
Oh girl
what do you want
to leave this world
from this fight
you've been forced into

Verse
Let me hold you while you quiver
shuttered up against the heater
hiding under your bed
tied to the cellar stairs
closed in the closet
while everybody stares
and calls you a liar

Chorus
Oh girl
what do you want
to leave the world
from this fight
you've been forced into

Verse
The man you've been waiting for
will come and take you away
like so many before
Don't cry, your time will come too

Chorus
Oh girl
what do you want
to leave this world
from this fight
you've been forced into

leave this world
what do you want to leave this world

It Wasn't Going to Change

Verse
I didn't want to leave you
or hurt you
the way I did
the tears you
had killed me inside

Bridge
We walked the same way
the same road
the same talk
so many many times
It wasn't going to change

Chorus
someone had to turn around
and walk out that door
and leave it all behind
We never really listened
to what was really going on...

Verse
we didn't really have love
I settle for what I could have
was afraid when I was home
of all the grown men

Chorus
someone had to turn around
and walk out that door
and leave it all behind
We never really listened
to what was really going on...

Verse
Someone had to step up
to speak up
for what they really wanted
I never really loved you
never really wanted you
you must have known all the time

Chorus
someone had to turn around
and walk out that door
and leave it all behind
We never really listened
to what was going on...


The Beast of Heaven


Photo by Steve Creitz

Verse
My hand hurts when I write
My head aches when my eyes blur
I can't relate when this happens
all I feel are nerves torn

Chorus
You are the beast of heaven
though I'm feeling bruised,
torn and braised
I will rise above with you

Verse
I'm bouncing
I'm happy with joy
I feel I'm blessed
when I feel I can anticipate
your direction
and knowing where I'm at
when you're around

Chorus
You are the beast of heaven
though I'm feeling bruised,
torn and braised
I will rise above with you

Verse
I can walk though it hurts
I can stand tall
though when I ride
it feels I'm falling every time
I come back again

Bridge
There's no sense of this direction
but I know fate has its purpose
I was meant to see you
hear you, and deal with you in every way

Chorus
You are the beast of heaven
though I'm feeling bruised,
torn and braised
I will rise above with you
and sit beside you

and sit beside you


I will rise up

I will rise up
2x
and sit beside you


Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Way Too Early #recording #nostalgia #lorijeanfinnila #newsong #Resolution2020 @iHeartRadio #richinwar #album #French #awards #abuse #2020


Photo by Pixabay from Pexels

Well I have my five required songs for the ISSA award nomination for 2020-2021 (not sure if that's this year 2020 to submit or the one after at this point). I'm also working towards and album this year coming up. I've wanted a CD for a while now and for the opportunity to put it into record stores. I've made milestones along the way and now this is one I'm working towards. Now I just have to work on the songs I have to get them very ready, and let my mind wander to get two more songs written; I haven't composed two of them yet so they're not posted at the Playlist for this album. Follow along at this playlist I just made for the album to see the progress. Also you can hear some of it at my podcast at iHeart radio where I discuss how my emotional life journey intertwines with the production of my music. Looking forward to the challenge  - my 2020 goal.

Way Too Early

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

Way Too Early #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #doubts #unsure

Hello!

I wrote this tonight on my way home, feeling unsure of myself again. Oh, oh.... I hate those moments but I know they have to exist because I'm not perfect. I feel at times that I'm a bit too vulnerable and that's mine are so strong. But I'm not sure to this. Check out the song. There may be some changes.



Way Too Early



Verse
I left home way too early
I was just a kid
I didn't realize
My mind would have to go too



Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey



Verse
It all comes around
to the beginning
where it started out



Bridge
The little girl
Sitting on the knee
Wasn't taught to say please
Just let her run
Just let her go



Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey



Verse
I had to learn
To bring my peace
Now on my knees
Crying to myself
Oh please
Tell me what I've done that's wrong



Bridge
I'm scared
I'm doubting myself again
I'm down on my knees
I'm cryin' again



 Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey



Verse
She said cry little girl
You can't seem to behave
You do everything wrong
You had to have it all yourself



Bridge
Don't cry
Just run little girl
That's what you wanted from the start



Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey

Friday, December 13, 2019

Life Before You #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #minor2go #composition #ex #abuse

I put together this beautiful composition, "Life Before You," because I was able to with Minor2Go loops; he is so fantastic and a life saver. When I feel I need to work on a project or express myself in some way, where I can only use my hands so much, and my brain at times, his music brings relief and construction. It's so pretty. I had been thinking about writing a song before my ex where I felt so loved and free as a child and wanted to share this experience. So here it is! This is also dedicated to my grandma Ida Finnila within her playlist of songs when I felt the love in my life.



Life Before You by Lori Jean Finnila with Minor2Go music loops


Photo by Kat Jayne from Pexels

Verse
There was life before you
I remember this after so long
But it's never too late

Chorus
I can see myself now
and how much I was loved
by those gone

I wish you only knew

Verse
I wish you knew the value of me
and how many people felt that way
about me
and how I felt that way too

Bridge
Now you laugh and want me destroyed
for all I know about you
But I will not go away
and let my strength leave

I can see myself now
and how much I was loved
by those gone

I wish you only knew

Chorus
I wish you valued people more
so you can see how beautiful life can be
the world is filled with so many
so deep that you can't even believe

I hope one day you will know
how much I really tried to love you
and I feel you felt the same way too

Haven't quite figured out the line up yet... but. I feel good.

Thursday, December 12, 2019

Questionable Song Lyrics #mmm #lorijeanfinnila #newsong #lyrics

This is a song of a young girl feeling safe from her daddy in life.




I Am Loved

Verse
The stadium is full
I look around
everyone is in motion
I observe I feel fine

Chorus
I'm confident in this place
my beauty is in tact this moment
I know I am loved

Verse
My surroundings feel protected
each step, each move I make
I'm watched to my privileged state
of who I am

Chorus

Verse
Each song that plays in my mind
brings in the comfort of night
I need no one around me
all I need is inside of me

Bridge
Father shows me love
passed down from my ancestors above
the one who is so important
showed me who I am at this moment

Chorus


Sunday, December 8, 2019

Rich in War by Lori Jean Finnila #updated #composition #lyrics #progressiverock #femaleartist

Special thanks to @Minor2GoMusic at Facebook for the loops for this song.

Rich in War (at Soundcloud (draft) free download Dedicated to mémère Ida Finnila

Photo by Yvon Maurice.


Lyrics:

Rich in War



Verse
She didn't tell me
how bad religion was
She wanted to be a man
it's was so very very sad

Chorus
She was rich in war
all she had to do was
move her paintbrush

Verse
I made a deal with the devil
He came down to me
He said he wanted to please
I said stop
this is what he did to me

Bridge
He came down
on his knees
Wanted to please
my mind went away
in every way

Chorus
She was rich in war
all she had to do was
move her paintbrush

Verse
the men were so bad
so really really bad


they were settled
so really really settled

Chorus
She was rich in war
all she had to do was
move her paintbrush


It was so sad
so really really sad

so really really sad

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

#VOTE #lorijeanfinnila at #wtyt960 "So Damned" #billboardcharts

Please vote for my song up now at WTYT 960 AM Rock Station as I try to get on the Billboard Charts!! Song will be officially released April 9, 2020 digitally. Working on a professional video to submit to MTV. Saving up my Credit Card Rewards for this!! lol Enjoy.