The Ugly Woman #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I'm up tonight writing this. I guess I'm the artist I need to be and I have to stop kicking myself about it no matter who likes it, that way I don't hurt the ones I really love. 

Verse

Breathing is necessary

Breathing is our privilege

I sit in silence and contemplate

Am I out of bounds

How do I change this if I am

Chorus

Breathing is free

Breathing is to strive

But in what way do we breathe

How do I make a woman not look so ugly

Verse

How do I know what I can do 

When I'm up late at night 

Thinking of all the things I have

Is this wrong for me

Chorus

Verse

I wonder my next move

Not talking too long or loud

I know I can't please everyone

Bridge

The act of a person 

Is like an animal

We have to strive 

We have to be the artist

To understand ourselves 

Chorus

What Is It That I Sorely Need #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I just started hitting this down. 

What is it that I sorely need

Photo by Anna Tarazevich

Alone in the dark

In a field waiting for life

Underwater where I escape most

I feel the beauty of desertion

the gaping holes in me

 Sagging skin and porous mane

I dont see

The liberation of disappearance

 I once feel again 

Though desertion is what you all see

I feel rooted

To some I may be buried

But I'm actually immersed

Not even to the knowledge to myself 

Outbreak to freedom 

A flight to liberation

Though this is what you may see

I feel the departure to the arrival me

Glasses Coated with Gold #newsong #rewrite #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 I just rewrote a song that I did a while back. Apparently this is what happens to you when you are left around so much lavish. Oh, oh.....

Photo courtesy Amazon.

Glasses Coated with Gold

Verse

So bored with disgust

Can't compare my lethargy

With words that come out of my mouth

Please forgive me for speaking

my boredom is beyond tears

Chorus

All I know 

are the glasses coated with gold

the freedom to run

play limitlessly

Verse

A desire to behold

A monument,

That fine white house 

on the hill to be mine

which all led to chancy foot skating

on a flowing river

where ducks drown

I could see to the bottom

where I hear the ice crack

as I was gently lifted

to my state where I was supposed to be

boredom, I need more fun

to the farthest place I can run

a queen to be, a show of me, in a play for everyone to see

Chorus

All I know are the glasses coated with gold

the freedom to run

play limitlessly

Verse

The tears for me

As I thin to fear

Dismay once again

Will I survive……

Chorus

All I know are the glasses coated with gold

the freedom to run

play limitlessly

the direction always pointing to me…….

The end.

This will be hard as heck finding music to go with this. lol

"Forgetting the Words" #newlyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 I found this neat where I was having a hard time getting the peace needed to write, this is what came out. Hoping my son will come up with a photo for this for my podcast on this song.

Verse

I’m thinking happiness and sad

both close together

I’m confused

I know not to tire

I’m trying to see where I am

It moves when I try to imagine what it is

Sadly enough, I don’t know when it’s coming back

My sight sees it perfectly outlined

though I can’t perfectly define it

I can still verbalize it out loud

Chorus

it will all come to me

don’t worry everyday

just because I keep

forgetting the words I want to say

Verse

It’s perfectly outlined and black

though not the deepest in its fullest

almost like a shadow 

I see the silhouette

I know not to tire

though It moves when I try to imagine what it is

Sadly enough, I don’t know 

when it’s coming back

Chorus

it will all come to me

don’t worry everyday

just because I keep

forgetting the words I want to say

I’m not crazy

though it looks like I am

I work everyday

to camouflage the vision

Don’t judge me

If I see myself this way

I know I’m not the only one

who has problems

all at the same time

just give me a chance

to show you I can be like you

Chorus

it will all come to me

don’t worry everyday

just because I keep

forgetting the words I want to say

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My Son's Photo for Lost In a "Sea of Darkness " #lorijeanfinnila #topchartssong #singersongwriter

This photo my son took helped to inspire this song.

lyrics

Verse

I come out with the way you don’t want to hear it

I’m talking again the way it’s not popular

when will I learn

Chorus

I’m lost in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my way to normalness

where is it that I can’t find to be

Verse

I’m flying I’m floating alone

in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my home

I think I’ll rest in peace alone

Chorus

I’m lost in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my way to normalness

where is it

that I can’t find to be

Verse

I think I’ve found a new way

I feel I’m opening up again

I feel the connecting

I know I’m on the right path

just to fall again

Perhaps I’m not so wrong

just born in a world not made for myself

where I can walk in a dimension and feel

comfortable on my own

if it were only safe

Chorus

I’m lost in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my way to normalness

where is it that I can’t find to be

lost in a sea of darkness

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