Brings back memories of me plucking on my pink plastic piano as a toddler..... #lorijeanfinnila #God #recording #freemusic

Though I felt close to God when being beaten close to death during abuse from my stalker I prayed for him to let me remain. Please feel free to download the song as well as the others under the "Am I Awake" album leaving it as .0 cents.

Close to God by Lori Jean Finnila

Brings back memories of me plucking on my pink plastic piano as a toddler the piano sounding like bells, fairies....

Image by pixel1 at Pixabay.

Close to God lyrics

Verse
I'm up one more day
The sun is shining
though I don't feel
as connected as others do
I'm still so grateful

Bridge
I feel I have much to do
I feel his message
I  fight to put into words
the meaning of my existence

Chorus
I feel so close to God
But I don't want to reach him too soon
Please tell him to love me
And let me remain

Verse
Another Sunday I can't make it to church
though I connect with those that perish
on a daily basis

Chorus
I feel so close to God
But I don't want to reach him too soon
Please tell him to love me
And let me remain

So close to God......
I feel so close to God

I Hold My Breath Before I Speak #abuse #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic

My Odyssey

You take everything, from me

my food, a place to sit

As I sit closed

in the window

I hold tight to my odyssey

to my wars

until I return home

return home

My choices are limited

I hold my breath

before I speak, move, or make a decision

How is this lucky?

(I know we've all felt this before.) #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic #COVID19 #relief

"My Odyssey" by Lori Jean Finnila

Image by Pexels from Pixabay.

"Flying" #recording #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic #dandelions

I finally found a universal song in all the mess in my mind. It's certainly not that it came from mess, but, alas, I was able to convert it for everyone universally. Make it into what you want in your mind.

Much love.

Lori Jean Finnila

Flying (free music) Still not in the studio, so bear with me. This came out pretty good too though.

Photo by Comfreak at Pixabay.

Recording "Am I Awake" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I wrote this album from pain but in a universal way. I just added the final for now of "Am I Awake" making the album name this track. I hope you enjoy it.

Am I Awake

Am I Awake #new #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I thought to pick this song up and publish it after listening to a song by Ed Sheeran where I could connect with my lyrics, yet subside its actual content where it can be universal. I'm glad I did and another learning step toward my music.

Am I Awake

Verse

I know you want me or control me

I just want to put it away

and get lost in the music....

Chorus

Am I here

Am I awake

I take one step away

and I don't feel the pain

Verse

I feel it would be better

to let go of the past

and make beauty of a bad situation

Chorus

Am I here

Am I awake

I take one step away

and I don't feel the pain

Am I really here

I'm in shock again

Am I awake

Or am I dreaming

Verse

We fight to keep it quiet

but why do we have to do this

blood bursts till it spills over

quiet screams to no one

Chorus

Album Cover

Photo by Gerd Altmann at Pixabay.

Adding to Simplicity Album #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #album #coronavirus #staystrong #domesticviolence

I picked four songs that I felt go well with my Simplicity album at bandcamp. Please follow along as I work on these when hopefully this fog in my throat clears as our air gets better.

They are as follows:

Rise Above with special thanks to Minor2Go Music

Verse

When I write my hand hurts

When I think my head aches

My eyes blur

when this happens

all I feel …..are the nerves

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

Verse

I'm bouncing

When I'm happy with joy

I feel I'm blessed

when I feel I can anticipate

your direction

and knowing where I'm at

when..... you're around

Chorus

Verse

I can walk though it hurts

I can stand tall

though when I ride

it feels I'm falling

every time I come back.... again

Bridge

There's no sense of this direction

I know fate has its purpose

I was meant to see you

and be with you in.... every way

Chorus

I will rise above and sit beside you

Tears Turn
by Lori Jean Finnila with special thanks to  Minor2Go Music
 

Verse

Please love, listen to me....

I was raised not to talk

about all the things done

It seems hard to function.

Chorus

I could sit down and cry

till my tears turn to falls

or I can pick myself up

and joy that is meant for me right now

Verse

The farmers boots don't hurt me

The free food, gas and water I don't mind

I just want to put everything in a box

where I feel there's no harm

Chorus

Verse

I could look deeper than what's necessary

or see what's in front of me

I can't think of one day without you

You brought my life and happiness back to me

Bridge

I'm sorry for the pasts that's burdened me 

has left you at times all alone.

I get ridiculed for my cutting words

my flesh too botched for heaven

Chorus

I could sit down and cry

my tears turn to falls

repeat

Right Here by Lori Jean Finnila

Verse

I see the man

stand still in the park

park is empty

I know there is more too

Chorus

This day is more important everyday

I feel this to you

from the message from above

and inside of me

Verse

Another stares with a frown

the humble reaches

for a question to be answered

all is fine

I'm right here with you

Chorus

Verse

I know you're scared

But I'm scared too

I listen to all the comments

trying to reach to you

Bridge

My mind has never been taken so far

even with all the tiniest darkest corners of our world

just takes a moment to forget this

when I can still feel

the warm hand in mine

Chorus

I'm right here with you

right here with you

I'm right here with you

right here with you

My Odyssey
Way Too Early
So Close to God
I'll Stand Strong
Leave This World

"Flying" by Lori Jean Finnila #newsong #lyrics #staystrong #stayhome #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Flying

Verse
I feel the dark spaces
inbetween my head
There's no air
For me to breathe in

Chorus
I am flying high
I'm flying low
I'm flying alone
Which thing should I turn into
Which way should I walk into

Verse
The quiet, the small looking pebbles in my view surrounded by blue
The deepest darkest color
you could ever imagine
Almost beautiful too

Chorus
I am flying high
I'm am flying low
I am flying alone
Which thing should I turn into
Which way should I walk into

Verse
It's all already been answered
Unfortunately to me
I just have to get it
The way I need to be

Bridge
It's solemn as it's always been
There's no changing to this

Chorus
I am flying high
I'm am flying low
I am flying alone
Which thing should I turn into
Which way should I walk into


 

Happy Easter!! Free Song Written for Coronavirus "Right Here" in Demo form #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #coronavirus #Oregon #world UnitedStates #HappyEaster #staystrong

Demo "Right Here"

Photo by Alena Koval from Pexels

Lyrics:

Right Here

Verse

I see the man

stand still in the park

park is empty

I know there is more too

Chorus

This day is more important everyday

I feel this to you

from the message from above

and inside of me

Verse

Another stares with a frown

the humble reaches

for a question to be answered

all is fine

I'm right here with you

Chorus

This day is more important everyday

I feel this to you

from the message from above

and inside of me

Verse

I know you're scared

But I'm scared too

I listen to all the comments

trying to reach to you

Bridge

My mind has never been taken so far

even with all the tiniest darkest corners of our world

just takes a moment to forget this

when I can still feel

the warm hand in mine

Chorus

This day is more important everyday

I feel this to you

from the message from above

and inside of me

I'm right here with you

right here with you

I'm right here with you

right here with you

 

Lori Jean Finnila ISSA USA Female Single Of The Year Nominee 2020 #pleasevote #press #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #music #award #issa

 Press Release

"Dying Burning Body" by Lori Jean Finnila


Please Vote Under USA Female Singer of the Year

International Singer-Songwriters Association USA Female Single of the Year 2020 Award for a song titled "Dying Burning Body" that expresses her pain when she doesn't even know it appears in the dark, and blank to the fog in her brain, to her dying burning body. She wants others to know how it feels after you've been abused, even if it's been so many years.


Follow me as the red carpet ceremony approaches toward the end of this year August 1rst in Dawsonville, GA.

Special thanks to @Minor2GoMusic.

Simplicity #updated #release #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Simplicity is in review again possibly delaying its release date because of cover issues. I just fixed it and hope that the date will concur to the original release date. I've attached a copy of the mastered song from my google drive for those not wanting to wait until its release. Once again happy times for you and yours and I hope you're staying safe. I reiterate I felt this was a good time to release this song of emotion and love that we all feel as vulnerable human beings.

Simplicity download

I also have it at my bandcamp music artist page for free. Song is registered with BMI for media outlets.