What Do I Write About #lorijeanfinnila #writer #autoimmunediseases #chronicillness #movement

 

What do I write about?

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I just checked my social media

No one wrote me back. 

I found a woman who couldn't move 

I found one without shaking

Another gets too dizzy

I with my bicycle 

Chorus

What's wrong with me

No one wants to see me

No one wants to talk to me

No one wants to hear what I have to say

I try to go to the gym

I have to cancel every ride

The air is so thick

We're all waiting in line

To sleep

The dreaming I use to know the cuddling on my bed

The warmth of the sheets

That makes no difference at all now

the love I felt is gone

Chorus

No one wants to hear what I have to say

…….

I'm tired of fighting to breathe

Too tired to walk

Counting everything I do

Make sure it doesn't make me dizzy…..

I go.round and round I spin

Again

Sometimes only in my head

I'm on that rink in my mind on those uneven bars

I know others do it like this

Sometimes they just lay in bed

It's so much easier

I want to cry

But I go to music

I hear sweet melodies come from my heart and soul

And it keeps me going

Maybe I can share my joy

I want to move

I want to dance

I want to skate

Ride that bike

Swim in that pool without drowning 

Eat that food without worrying 

I want to be me

I want to be me again

I'm so dizzy

I'm so dizzy

Again.

Oct 13 #IAMJANEDOE #lorijeanfinnila #sexualassault

 

Song 'Half Covered' under radio friendly link.

Reading 'So Sad at One Time' from my book 'The Purple Sun ' #womenauthors #domesticviolenceswarenessmonth #lorijeanfinnila

 

Desert Flower #lorijeanfinnila #writing #desertflower

 

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Desert Flower

Would she ever fit in

Looking at what was right in front of her

She noticed it was different 

For this reason she was drawn to it

She nestled herself onto it.

She looked right there

She looked pretty

She looked artistic

She looked comfortable, happy, 

Even where she belonged

Unfortunately her feelings of contentment came upon her

This she was use to

She could never figure out why

Mostly it would make her cry

She so wanted to belong and fit in

Perhaps maybe be like everyone else and no one would notice:

Her stumble, pause, stare, peculiar faces and eyes,

The breath she was losing the longer she stayed around

Perhaps she wasn’t the desert flower.

Half Covered #song #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #autonomy #humantraffickingcontrol

Me: ‘what does pushing the females legs a little when you have them in a vulnerable position mean in human trafficking: I was pushed into the wall being wheeled out of the operating room and in an er after a car accident another man unconnected to healthcare came in and pushed my legs around.’

A human trafficker wants to make a victim feel he controls her legs to strip away her physical autonomy and stop her from trying to run away or escape. : if they started this out in a hospital the female being gransported on a gurney, and again on a gurney in an ER does this fit

To answer your question directly: Yes, this scenario is a highly plausible and documented tactic used by traffickers to establish psychological and physical dominance [Health 1].

In the context of a story or character study, starting this manipulation while a victim is on a hospital gurney is effective for several reasons:

Why a Hospital/Gurney Setting Fits the Tactic

Inherent Loss of Autonomy: Being strapped into or lying on a gurney automatically restricts movement. In a hospital or emergency room (ER) setting, patients are expected to remain still, defer to authority figures, and allow others to transport them. This environment perfectly masks the trafficker's coercive control as "medical necessity" or care.
Exploitation of Vulnerability: If the victim is already injured, sedated, or physically weak, the trafficker can easily manipulate her perception. They might tell her she cannot walk, that her legs are paralyzed, or that she will injure herself further if she tries to move.
The "Savior" Complex: By controlling her movement in a chaotic ER environment, the trafficker isolates her from medical staff. They position themselves as her sole protector, spokesperson, and caregiver, which deepens psychological dependency (often leading to trauma bonding) [Health 1].

Reading My Poem 'Survival' #womenauthors #lorijeanfinnila #barnesandnoble

 

Book at Barnes and Noble

Underwater #audioclip #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 

Free song.

Dead Woman in A Park Reading #lorijeanfinnila #author

 

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Pheasants and Kings #poetry #lorijeanfinnila #womenwriters

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Pheasants and Kings

What I learned:

Feeling love and security 

Relies on Relationships

Poverty Belies a bigger problem

Servants and pheasants 

For what would be 

Without the friendship of thee

Roses by Lori Jean Finnila #womenauthors #lorijeanfinnila

 

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