Singer and Songwriter : 2019

Friday, December 27, 2019

Update One New Song The Beast of Heaven and Different Name to The Rain: Tenth Song Done #album #richinwar #lorijeanfinnila Leave This World #abuse

I added The Beast of Heaven (at the bottom) song because I felt it was smart. I was having trouble recording Simplicity. A bit of change in the lyrics to It Wasn't Going to Change as well about a girl leaving a marriage that she entered to abandon abuse in her home. The entire updated playlist so far is here: Soundcloud

I remember my mom tying me to the cellar stairs when I was still in diapers. My aunt would come over and see me and be in tears and my mother would talk her thinking it was okay. My sister would come home from school and want to cry and my mother would teach her to ignore me.

Later it would be a closet and then no Novocaine at the dentist; it would make me strong she would say. This is where I came up with this song. I may make some minor changes down the road.

Photo courtesy NY Times

Ten Songs for Album

I Am Loved
The Rain
Rich in War (title song)
Life Before You
Am I Awake
Simplicity
It Wasn't Going to Change (new as well)
Way Too Early
Valentine (decided to use - I need to work on the composition)
Vanity and the Heart

Leave This World (video)

Verse

I was told if you want to live

you have to fight

I was taught

when the rain comes down

quiet in the night

listen to the sound

of the most important things

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave this world

what you've been taught to fight

what you've been forced into

Verse

Some would come

to take my beauty

some would come

to take my virginity

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave this world

from this fight

you've been forced into

Verse

Let me hold you while you quiver

shuttered up against the heater

hiding under your bed

tied to the cellar stairs

closed in the closet

while everybody stares

and calls you a liar

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave the world

from this fight

you've been forced into

Verse

The man you've been waiting for

will come and take you away

like so many before

Don't cry, your time will come too

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave this world

from this fight

you've been forced into

leave this world

what do you want to leave this world

It Wasn't Going to Change

Verse

I didn't want to leave you

or hurt you

the way I did

the tears you

had killed me inside

Bridge

We walked the same way

the same road

the same talk

so many many times

It wasn't going to change

Chorus

someone had to turn around

and walk out that door

and leave it all behind

We never really listened

to what was really going on...

Verse

we didn't really have love

I settle for what I could have

was afraid when I was home

of all the grown men

Chorus

someone had to turn around

and walk out that door

and leave it all behind

We never really listened

to what was really going on...

Verse

Someone had to step up

to speak up

for what they really wanted

I never really loved you

never really wanted you

you must have known all the time

Chorus

someone had to turn around

and walk out that door

and leave it all behind

We never really listened

to what was going on...

The Beast of Heaven

Photo by Steve Creitz

Verse

My hand hurts when I write

My head aches when my eyes blur

I can't relate when this happens

all I feel are nerves torn

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

Verse

I'm bouncing

I'm happy with joy

I feel I'm blessed

when I feel I can anticipate

your direction

and knowing where I'm at

when you're around

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

Verse

I can walk though it hurts

I can stand tall

though when I ride

it feels I'm falling every time

I come back again

Bridge

There's no sense of this direction

but I know fate has its purpose

I was meant to see you

hear you, and deal with you in every way

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

and sit beside you

I will rise up

and sit beside you

Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Way Too Early #recording #nostalgia #lorijeanfinnila #newsong #Resolution2020 @iHeartRadio #richinwar #album #French #awards #abuse #2020

Photo by Pixabay from Pexels

Well I have my five required songs for the ISSA award nomination for 2020-2021 (not sure if that's this year 2020 to submit or the one after at this point). I'm also working towards and album this year coming up. I've wanted a CD for a while now and for the opportunity to put it into record stores. I've made milestones along the way and now this is one I'm working towards. Now I just have to work on the songs I have to get them very ready, and let my mind wander to get two more songs written; I haven't composed two of them yet so they're not posted at the Playlist for this album. Follow along at this playlist I just made for the album to see the progress. Also you can hear some of it at my podcast at iHeart radio where I discuss how my emotional life journey intertwines with the production of my music. Looking forward to the challenge - my 2020 goal.

Way Too Early

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

Way Too Early #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #doubts #unsure

Hello!

I wrote this tonight on my way home, feeling unsure of myself again. Oh, oh.... I hate those moments but I know they have to exist because I'm not perfect. I feel at times that I'm a bit too vulnerable and that's mine are so strong. But I'm not sure to this. Check out the song. There may be some changes.

Photo by Alexander Krivitskiy from Pexels

Way Too Early

Verse
I left home way too early
I was just a kid
I didn't realize
My mind would have to go too

Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey

Verse
It all comes around
to the beginning
where it started out

Bridge
The little girl
Sitting on the knee
Wasn't taught to say please
Just let her run
Just let her go

Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey

Verse
I had to learn
To bring my peace
Now on my knees
Crying to myself
Oh please
Tell me what I've done that's wrong

Bridge
I'm scared
I'm doubting myself again
I'm down on my knees
I'm cryin' again

Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey

Verse
She said cry little girl
You can't seem to behave
You do everything wrong
You had to have it all yourself

Bridge
Don't cry
Just run little girl
That's what you wanted from the start

Chorus
Oh little girl don't worry
You can comfort yourself again
It's not your fault
It's your life journey

Friday, December 13, 2019

Life Before You #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #minor2go #composition #ex #abuse

I put together this beautiful composition, "Life Before You," because I was able to with Minor2Go loops; he is so fantastic and a life saver. When I feel I need to work on a project or express myself in some way, where I can only use my hands so much, and my brain at times, his music brings relief and construction. It's so pretty. I had been thinking about writing a song before my ex where I felt so loved and free as a child and wanted to share this experience. So here it is! This is also dedicated to my grandma Ida Finnila within her playlist of songs when I felt the love in my life.

Life Before You by Lori Jean Finnila with Minor2Go music loops

Photo by Kat Jayne from Pexels

Verse
There was life before you
I remember this after so long
But it's never too late

Chorus
I can see myself now
and how much I was loved
by those gone

I wish you only knew

Verse
I wish you knew the value of me
and how many people felt that way
about me
and how I felt that way too

Bridge
Now you laugh and want me destroyed
for all I know about you
But I will not go away
and let my strength leave

I can see myself now
and how much I was loved
by those gone

I wish you only knew

Chorus
I wish you valued people more
so you can see how beautiful life can be
the world is filled with so many
so deep that you can't even believe

I hope one day you will know
how much I really tried to love you
and I feel you felt the same way too

Haven't quite figured out the line up yet... but. I feel good.

Thursday, December 12, 2019

Questionable Song Lyrics #mmm #lorijeanfinnila #newsong #lyrics

This is a song of a young girl feeling safe from her daddy in life.

Photo by Nicolas Postiglioni from Pexels

I Am Loved

Verse

The stadium is full

I look around

everyone is in motion

I observe I feel fine

Chorus

I'm confident in this place

my beauty is in tact this moment

I know I am loved

Verse

My surroundings feel protected

each step, each move I make

I'm watched to my privileged state

of who I am

Chorus

Verse

Each song that plays in my mind

brings in the comfort of night

I need no one around me

all I need is inside of me

Bridge

Father shows me love

passed down from my ancestors above

the one who is so important

showed me who I am at this moment

Chorus

Sunday, December 8, 2019

Rich in War by Lori Jean Finnila #updated #composition #lyrics #progressiverock #femaleartist

Special thanks to @Minor2GoMusic at Facebook for the loops for this song.

Rich in War (at Soundcloud (draft) free download Dedicated to mémère Ida Finnila

Photo by Yvon Maurice.

Lyrics:

Rich in War

by Lori Jean Finnila

Verse

She didn't tell me

how bad religion was

She wanted to be a man

it's was so very very sad

Chorus

She was rich in war

all she had to do was

move her paintbrush

Verse

I made a deal with the devil

He came down to me

He said he wanted to please

I said stop

this is what he did to me

Bridge

He came down

on his knees

Wanted to please

my mind went away

in every way

Chorus

She was rich in war

all she had to do was

move her paintbrush

Verse

the men were so bad

so really really bad

they were settled

so really really settled

Chorus

She was rich in war

all she had to do was

move her paintbrush

It was so sad

so really really sad

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

#VOTE #lorijeanfinnila at #wtyt960 "So Damned" #billboardcharts

Please vote for my song up now at WTYT 960 AM Rock Station as I try to get on the Billboard Charts!! Song will be officially released April 9, 2020 digitally. Working on a professional video to submit to MTV. Saving up my Credit Card Rewards for this!! lol Enjoy.

Saturday, November 30, 2019

Canada #TopCharts Radio #2 Christmas Song "You This Christmas" #lorijeanfinnila #merry #girl #mpgradio #French #royalty

I'm #2 never in my life on a radio channel!!!!!!!!! Yeah! The French love me.

MPG Canada Radio Charts

Thank you Baillargeon and Roulea ancestors for your luck rubbing off on me. Special Thanks also to @Minor2GoMusic

Friday, November 29, 2019

Lyrics and Updated Composition to #song Am I Awake #domesticabuse #lorijeanfinnila #lyrics #composition #progressiverock #download

Here is a download and the lyrics to a song I'm working on.

Photo by Ali Pazani from Pexels

Am I Awake

Verse

I know you really want me

or control me

I know I could be sad

and give up on life

Bridge

But I feel that it would be

better to just put it away

and get lost to the music

I only know when I feel this way

I know I'll be alright

Chorus

Am I really here

Am I awake

I take one step away and

I don't feel the pain

I'm here but I'm outside of this situation

I'm in shock again

Am I awake

or am I dreaming

Verse

I feel it would be better

to let the past go right now

I can see into the future

and make beauty of a bad situation

Chorus

Am I really here

Am I awake

I take one step away and

I don't feel the pain

I'm here but I'm outside of this situation

I'm in shock again

Am I awake

or am I dreaming

Verse

We fight to keep it quiet

but why do we have to do this

blood bursts until it spills over

my quiet screams to no one

Am I really here?

2x repeat

Chorus

Am I really here

Am I awake

I take one step away and

I don't feel the pain

Am I really here?

I take one step away and I don't feel the pain

Am I Awake

Wednesday, November 27, 2019

Vanity and the Heart #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #lyricist #singersongwriter

Vanity and the Heart

Photo by Paola Diaz from Pexels

Lyrics:

Verse

I live from the fears of that summer

that pounds heavily on my mind and body

still, the little girl tumbles

Chorus

Does my vanity

interfere with my heart

Will it stand in my way

of what I really want

Verse

The cold scares me

the loneliness makes me peril

to my steps

my mind doubts its choices

Chorus

Verse

I slowly peek out from myself

I want to join in

I'm afraid I'll be banished

forever from my inner self

alone forever...

Once again I question my comfort

and what makes me feel assured

Chorus

Verse

Why do I have to doubt myself

so many times

why is vanity so bad

What makes me different to anyone else

for the way I feel to this

Sunday, November 24, 2019

Lyrics to #newsong "You This Christmas" #lorijeanfinnila #holidays #music

Photo by Pixabay from Pexels

I thought to share the lyrics to my new Christmas song "You This Christmas" by Lori Jean Finnila. I wrote it in a day.

Lyrics:

You This Christmas

Verse

I have the cake

I have the drinks

I have my skinny blue jeans for you

All I don't have is you

Chorus

Bring me my gifts

This Christmas

All I don't have is you....

I'm feeling blue

You can hear it too

Verse

I have the gifts

I have the aura around me

God's blessed me for my sins

Bridge

I have the ham expeditiously done

my eyes done the way you adore

Your tie hanging off my neck

and nothing more....

Chorus

Bring me my gifts

This Christmas

All I don't have is you....

I'm feeling blue

You can hear it too

This Christmas

All I don't have is you

Verse

My eyes fill with tears

I wait for your car to pull in

I feel the frost on my fingertips

as I hang on the window sill

Chorus

Bring me my gifts

This Christmas

All I don't have is you.... this Christmas

If you haven't caught it yet it's in rotation at MPG Radio in their Holiday Stream.

Thursday, October 10, 2019

News Spot for My Museboat Podcast and UK DJ is Wowing Me #excited #healing with #music #lorijeanfinnila

This DJ is hot as heck. Andy and herself made this wonderful news blast for this Sunday at Museboat radio where my podcast on how I healed from healing tips will be aired, along with some of my featured music in it. Please come listen!! You'll love it! Also check about 39 minutes in if you're on a hurry to listen to me, though you'll miss some extremely hot artists before me, to hear me featured on this podcast under "New Champion Radio" for my song "Never Thought of You" that I love so much that I put out on my birthday this year. Though I have so many others of mine that I love to. I look forward to putting out "Cherry Blossoms which I feel is close to this song. Boy this woman DJ, another awesome DJ, DJ Bingo, made me look so good in this song!!

New Spotify Playlist Featured Artist at Museboat Radio #lorijeanfinnila #Spotify #playlist #radio

Please listen in to this new playlist supporting some great artists including myself. This gives all artists organic listens.

Also Friday and Sundays at 2:00 pm PST are great days to listen at Museboat.com with live artists in chat. I'll be there as I'm a featured artist. As well my new Holistic Tips podcast with be featured and air before this Sunday's show at 1:00 pm PST where I share healing tips from my music, nutrition and spiritual healing. Watch for more shows from me there under podcasts and the announcement here.

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

Many Others #song #femaleartist #composer #singersongwriter #lorijeanfinnila #life #journey AND #newsong Too Clearly

Many Others

Too Clearly lyrics (finished and named changed from I'm Not Alone)

Too Clearly

I am alone

but I'm in love

Like everyone else

The movements

The pattern is a melody

Ironically

Chorus

I'm sick

I'm sick inside

Do I speak too loud

I hear it too clearly

I hear the pitch change

But I keep walking in my path

My words too wet

But drippy I still speak

Chorus

I'm sick

I'm sick inside

Do I speak too loud

I hear it too clearly

I see more than others do

My perception is too clear

Do I speak for myself

so many others as well

Chorus

I'm sick

I'm sick inside

Do I speak too loud

I hear it too clearly

Photo by Tom Swinnen from Pexels

Saturday, September 21, 2019

Many Others #newsong #composition #artisticatmosphere #lorijeanfinnila #rainbow of the #world

Here's the composition and lyrics to a new song I wrote. I'll be working on the recording. Many Others

Lyrics:

Many Others

I speak for myself
but for many others as well
I cry for myself
but for many others as well

The wars
The cries
The shame
The destitute
with no destination

My sheets are dry
My tears keep me moist
My mind gives me energy
from all my thoughts

I look high
For the dream
I feel the magic
but what I see is pain
Pain that is not just inside of me
I know I'm not alone

Pain pain pain
I know I'm not alone

Photo by Markus Spiske temporausch.com from Pexels

Demoish song So Damned and Video Clip of song Cherry Blossoms #progressive #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #femaleartist

Clip of "Cherry Blossoms" video
I've been enjoying playing around with the mood in the vocal with this one.

Demoish "So Damned"
This one's coming along nice.

Monday, September 9, 2019

Cherry Blossoms #newsong #clip #lorijeanfinnila #progressiverock

Hello,

I have a clip made of my new song Cherry Blossoms. I also added another song to my bandcamp album Chunk of Love. I'm leaning towards publishing Cherry Blossoms.

Photo by Brett Sayles from Pexels

Saturday, September 7, 2019

Cherry Blossom #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #indie #groove

Lyrics

Cherry Blossom

Verse

How do I learn

to feel the same

way

you do about me

Chorus

I remember every year

the cherry blossoms

falling off the tree

I was beautiful to you

and me

Verse

Then I could see love

So simply so easily

You smiled when I approached

when you see you'd touched me

Chorus

I remember every year

the cherry blossoms

falling off the tree

I was beautiful to you

and me

Verse

Now it's cold and I wither

I can't see how that day once was...

I'm alone but surviving

without you in this cold cold world

You told me I never could

But I did

Chorus

I remember every year the cherry blossoms

falling off the tree

I was beautiful to you and me

Verse

You took my love

I didn't see it through

You took my confidence

from me of the ability I had of love

of what we had

now it's all gone

you want me back

Chorus

I remember every year

the cherry blossoms

falling off the tree

I was beautiful to you

and me

Watch for the making of it and the new track at: Lori Jean Finnila singer songwriter podcast

Monday, September 2, 2019

Full Draft New Song and Listen Along to the Process #lorijeanfinnila #singer #femaleartist #femalecomposer #femalelyricist #progressiverock

Singer Songwriter Podcast

Draft of Song

Verse
That place
that space
that desperate hole inside of me

Bridge

Shows I don't belong to no one else

I've seen so many torn roads on my own

I only know how to do this for myself

Chorus

I can comfort myself

You can't take that away from me

It took so many years

for me to see

It took so many years

for me to see.......

Verse

I remember the death

inside of me

when no one else was around

or even seemed to want me

Chorus

Verse

I can attain the impossible

I know it's deep inside of me

If I can just hold to future waves

I can comfort myself.....

So many years for me to see

Photo by Roberto Nickson from Pexels

Sunday, September 1, 2019

New Song New Singer Songwriter Podcast #podcast #singersongwriter #lorijeanfinnila #femaleartist #femalesinger

A clip of my new song and my new singer and songwriter podcast where you can hear me working on my music. Clip "I Can Comfort Myself" and Lori Jean Finnila Singer Songwriter Podcast.

Friday, August 30, 2019

Tagged Tomorrow on XRP Radio with Sponsors B-Squad #lorijeanfinnila #tagged #radio #progressive #bsquad #xrpradio

11- 7 guys UK time. Search your time on the photo. Mine is 11 am tomorrow. http://xrpradio.co.uk
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This hot on your tracks band is sponsoring tomorrow's show with ME played in it. 11:00 am PST starts Come listen, share and thank this hot band. Here’s an album for you… More Is More B-Squad @XRPRadio

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Sunday, August 25, 2019

Scheduled Radio Airplay in France Tomorrow #France #RadioAirplay #lorijeanfinnila

France's Radio KC 12:00 pm PST
I will be featured, played and promoted tomorrow on France's Radio KC in Airplay Introduction on "The Welcome Show." I submitted "We All Fail Sometimes" and "When the Guilt is Gone" as two eclectic tracks. I'm so pleased to be played in the home of my royal ancestors. This is the first time for me. Watch for me on their Facebook and Twitter.

They're linked to 204 countries with almost 40k followers on Twitter. Please listen in online.

Monday, August 12, 2019

Scheduled Radio Airplay at Spain's Only Rock Radio #lorijeanfinnila

12/08/2019 7:35	Lori Jean @lorifinnila	Never Thought Of You
15/08/2019 9:33	Lori Jean @lorifinnila	Never Thought Of You
15/08/2019 23:01	Lori Jean @lorifinnila	Never Thought Of You
17/08/2019 4:37	Lori Jean @lorifinnila	Never Thought Of You

#tiorrplaylist #tiorradio1 next 7 days planning

Check out our spins and listen us
(UTC+1, Brussels, Copenhagen, Madrid, Paris)
Listen on http://bit.ly/opho84F

Not sure of the time difference.

Monday, July 29, 2019

#newsong #lyrics I'm in Glee #happy #puppyprimelove #lorijean

wanna know my business

here it is:

you make me smile

you make me stand tall

I'm glee ming with you......

IN the air

I'm super woman for you

You make me rush

you make me blush

I'm standing here all alone

I can't stand still

I'm in glee

give me a reason

this happens to me

Photo by Simon Matzinger from Pexels

I'm high in my heart

you get a kick

you give me a kick

over to you

I lose my breath

you start to smile

are we in style

together

your magic hits me in my prime

I'm in glee

give me a reason

this happens to me

you make me smile

you make me see

you make me jump so high

I'm happy to see

are we in style once again

are we in chic

together maybe baby

your magic hits my prime

I'm in glee

give me a reason

this happens to me

You strike my heart

you're not afraid

I'm waitin on you night and day

just give me a call

or lend a hand

I don't mind when or what it is

I'm in glee

give me a reason

this happens to me

use your head

use your mind

I'm waitin' on your heart baby.....

Sunday, July 28, 2019

So Close to God video by Lori Jean #god #lorijean #women #spiritual #gospel #musicvideo #femaleartist #femalesinger #female #lyrics

So Close to God song

Lori's story of healing from injuries from abuse while connecting with other women's pain.

Composed by MINOR2GO at looperman.com.

Photo by Mike Bird at Pexels.com

So Close to God video by Lori Jean

Saturday, July 27, 2019

Breaking the Path #playlist #tagged As Victims #lorijean #molestation #childabuse #abusedwomen #abusesurvivor #femaleartist #femalecomposer

Tagged as Victims - learn what happens to lives of victims in their life's travels being tagged by abuse in Lori's songs in Breaking the Path at soundcloud.. Being marked as a child molested, though her mom grabbed her when the fondling began outside her diaper, Lori was targeted as owned in her own leading nation of the United States. This continued into her juvenile and adult years, tagged, molding her path with abuse afflicted upon her.
https://soundcloud.com/lori-jean-230919722/sets/breaking-th-epath

Photo by Pixabay from Pexels

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Beautifully Imperfect Album #lorijean #beautifulimperfections #allies #friends #solitude #yoga #holisticnutrition

As I struggle day to day, trying to find ways to get better, heal, connect with others, possibly love someday, I still struggle daily finding the right ways and methods. I've been fighting disease with food, fighting broken nerves and cracked bones with yoga, I should feel it's a lost cause in a world with contempt, threat, and resentment toward my injuries done to me, I don't. Perhaps it's my world I've made, I'm making, my new solitude of hope I've built myself, and sometimes someone comes in and gives me a shimmer of happiness from their end. But when I feel a breath enter my body from a place where force can't be controlled doing yoga or delect honey sweetened chocolate, I know there is a greater world.

As I write more and more I seem to be coming to a conclusion, a branding. A road from my life that is making a pattern. I can feel a collection of songs making a branded album.

Beautifully Imperfect Album Synopsis

I just wanted to address the choice to be a single woman and mom. I found there weren't many choices in life when it came to this and they were becoming less and more limited the stronger my body and mind grew toward this decision. I was left in a dilemma to make my own platform and constantly dragging, clearing a path for myself. As I clear, and reflect on times of love, I write my music.

My beautiful imperfections that are mine now, that I have received outside of beauty, sit on my shoulders as I write, think. They have become my strongest friends, though I'm told to ignore them - I can't they're too strong.

Wednesday, July 10, 2019

New Releases in the Works #playlist #lorijean #electronic #indiemusician #femaleartist

New Releases in the Works

I'm proud to display a new playlist that I've been working hard towards. I love the atmosphere of the electronic festivals and would be so proud to be a part of it.

Photo by mikky koopac from Pexels

Sunday, June 30, 2019

First Spotify Artist Paycheck!!! #lorijean #spotifyartist #paycheck #femaleartist

So excited!!! I just got my first Spotify Artist Paycheck!!!! I'm finally getting my money again. I know this looks small but I used to get mad when I would get 100 of these .01 payments because I was insulted; I didn't understand the streaming digital pay chart, that was good. Now I'm just happy to be getting my own payments again after such a long struggle of getting mixed up with another artist under my name. Yeah! Thanks Spotify for saving me.