Update One New Song The Beast of Heaven and Different Name to The Rain: Tenth Song Done #album #richinwar #lorijeanfinnila Leave This World #abuse

 I added The Beast of Heaven (at the bottom) song because I felt it was smart. I was having trouble recording Simplicity. A bit of change in the lyrics to It Wasn't Going to Change as well about a girl leaving a marriage that she entered to abandon abuse in her home. The entire updated playlist so far is here: Soundcloud


I remember my mom tying me to the cellar stairs when I was still in diapers. My aunt would come over and see me and be in tears and my mother would talk her thinking it was okay. My sister would come home from school and want to cry and my mother would teach her to ignore me.

Later it would be a closet and then no Novocaine at the dentist; it would make me strong she would say. This is where I came up with this song. I may make some minor changes down the road.

Photo courtesy NY Times


Ten Songs for Album

I Am Loved
The Rain
Rich in War (title song)
Life Before You
Am I Awake
Simplicity
It Wasn't Going to Change (new as well)
Way Too Early
Valentine (decided to use - I need to work on the composition)
Vanity and the Heart

Leave This World (video)

Verse

I was told if you want to live

you have to fight

I was taught

when the rain comes down

quiet in the night

listen to the sound

of the most important things

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave this world

what you've been taught to fight

what you've been forced into

Verse

Some would come

to take my beauty

some would come

to take my virginity

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave this world

from this fight

you've been forced into

Verse

Let me hold you while you quiver

shuttered up against the heater

hiding under your bed

tied to the cellar stairs

closed in the closet

while everybody stares

and calls you a liar

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave the world

from this fight

you've been forced into

Verse

The man you've been waiting for

will come and take you away

like so many before

Don't cry, your time will come too

Chorus

Oh girl

what do you want

to leave this world

from this fight

you've been forced into

leave this world

what do you want to leave this world

It Wasn't Going to Change

Verse

I didn't want to leave you

or hurt you

the way I did

the tears you

had killed me inside

Bridge

We walked the same way

the same road

the same talk

so many many times

It wasn't going to change

Chorus

someone had to turn around

and walk out that door

and leave it all behind

We never really listened

to what was really going on...

Verse

we didn't really have love

I settle for what I could have

was afraid when I was home

of all the grown men

Chorus

someone had to turn around

and walk out that door

and leave it all behind

We never really listened

to what was really going on...

Verse

Someone had to step up

to speak up

for what they really wanted

I never really loved you

never really wanted you

you must have known all the time

Chorus

someone had to turn around

and walk out that door

and leave it all behind

We never really listened

to what was going on...

The Beast of Heaven

Photo by Steve Creitz

Verse

My hand hurts when I write

My head aches when my eyes blur

I can't relate when this happens

all I feel are nerves torn

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

Verse

I'm bouncing

I'm happy with joy

I feel I'm blessed

when I feel I can anticipate

your direction

and knowing where I'm at

when you're around

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

Verse

I can walk though it hurts

I can stand tall

though when I ride

it feels I'm falling every time

I come back again

Bridge

There's no sense of this direction

but I know fate has its purpose

I was meant to see you

hear you, and deal with you in every way

Chorus

You are the beast of heaven

though I'm feeling bruised,

torn and braised

I will rise above with you

and sit beside you

and sit beside you

I will rise up

I will rise up

2x

and sit beside you