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Monday, September 21, 2020

"Cries Too Far" #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #fate #never #measured

 I came up with this from a few songs I've already written but not professionally distributed, "Those Unseen," "Am I Awake," and a new one I had been working on. I had originally used a loop from Martin Minor at Minor2Go music for "Those Unseen." I like how it goes to this as well where I can just change the pitch for a chorus. He did the loop so beautifully. I have to look for it again tomorrow.

These flowers are withered but they've learned to grow hard.




Photo by Juanjo Menta from Pexels

Cries Too Far

Verse

I hear cries and screams

I said pray, hold on

beg or plead

look far outside comfort

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Verse

We fight to keep this quiet

why do we do this

Our cries are never seen

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Verse

Our body becomes a machine to reconstruct

Our mind never learned

to heal or cope

Bridge

Injuries become a measurement in weight

when the cries come up

to be determined its fate

It's too late

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Cries too far from the mind

Verse

Those unseen are left behind

far from the mind

scars are seen

way to late

Our cries are too far from the mind

Their fate never measured

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Cries too far from the mind

Cries too far


Thursday, September 10, 2020

Lyrics and Recording to #newsong "Underwater" by #lorijeanfinnila #convulsions #underwater

 I was thought of as incomprehensible ever since a toddler because of my convulsions. I sit here today and cry from missing my mom and dad's funeral running from the hectic in my life.



Photo by Pixabay from Pexels

Underwater at SoundCloud

Lyrics

Verse

I saw you looking at me

So peculiar

You thought I didn't see

My way to you

My way here

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times

Verse

Mother would sleep and not see

Father would panic frantically

When he'd see my face on the cover

Of a rock n roll album

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times

Verse

Dad would still buy the records

Mom would still play the music

As I plucked for you

Stared at you

Barely speaking

Bridge

I knew the chords I was playing

Even though they made no sense to you

I was riding down the hall to save alla

In my red fire engine

My rocking horse was the last to know

You'd tell me mom not to go so fast

I'd rock more and end up out the window

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times


Underwater

I looked underwater

To you so many times

I tried to tell you I was really here

I can still hear the doctors saying

I'm underwater

Underwater to you

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times



Friday, August 21, 2020

The Best Place #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #hot

 

The Best Place



I'm hot

my mind is not

in the right place

You're not in my vicinity

real close to me


Chorus

I'm not in

the best place

I can be

right now

for you and me


Verse

I feel alone

most of the time

all around me

even when you're home



Chorus



Verse

I feel you should talk

or come touch me

I feel I need to be connected more

so you can see how I feel


Bridge

I don't want to leave

but these feelings

leave me to such a place

away from here


Chorus

I'm not in

the best place

I can be

right now

for you and me


Photo by Masha Raymers from Pexels



Thursday, July 9, 2020

"So Grateful" #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #grateful

Photo by Řaj Vaishnaw from Pexels

"So Grateful" by Lori Jean Finnila

Verse
I look down at my boots below
as I felt my hands
touch the floor inside of me
remembering me on a floor just like this
on drugs

Chorus
I felt so grateful
as I anguished of that time
to have a home
as my after thought
away from it all

verse
My head would lift
in the dark, my groggy mind
to see things I shouldn't know
as girls disappear right before my eyes

Chorus

Verse
I cringe still today
of the sights
of the moments in my life
the fear still remains

Bridge
There's so much more to this
the girl's hand I held
still haunts me to this day
when I saw her go down

her body shook like I've known

Chorus
I felt so grateful
as I anguished of that time
to have a home
as my after thought
away from it all

Wednesday, July 8, 2020

Five Characteristics for Characters for the Movie "The Virtuous Woman" #richinwar #song #lorijeanfinnila #52FilmsByWomen

In “The Virtuous Woman,” that connects this story to the song “Rich in War,” I'm naming five characteristics of three characters that start the movie that I'm adding to that I wrote: The dad, the mom, and the grandmother – on the father's side.

They make the setup for the beginning of movie with trouble, later in strength, and ending in resolution for the main character of a young woman who had to leave home at 14 in the 50's named Celia. The bright eyed strawberry blond with light eyes was so eager to life but with many questions unanswered before she ventured the cruel world, sometimes making mistakes when she ventured out on her own but learning from them.

"Rich in War" video produced by Lori Jean Finnila. (The wars of woman.)

Dad: troubled because he was confused, flimsy in his decisions though he didn't see this, determined, insubstantial,

Mom: feeble, delicate, frail, fracturable shivery,

Grandmother: crisp, durable, unbreakable, consistent, able

Celia

Sunday, June 21, 2020

Bound Little Girls Without Their Parents #scared #children #madeline #french #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I was able to get the lyrics lined up to what actually happened to me when I was taken at 17 taken by an abusive boyfriend at the time to an abortion clinic and bound without my parents along with many other little girls. One of my favorite French fairy tale books was "Madeline" given to me by my French grandmother. The smallest character in the book was Madeline. I was always so small because I almost died from convulsions when I was a toddler - I had a hard time eating and digesting food and wasn't growing after that for a long time.

I was in shock after I was drugged that day and had my baby taken from my body after its necked was cracked because I was too far along and thrown into a trash can when I was walked into a room with all these other little girls lined up perfectly exactly tucked into sleeping beds; I almost died from bleeding to death but one of the girls spooked at the counselor that was letting me bleed out so I got stuffed with a towel when the counselor had to second guess her action.

madeline1
Illustration Courtesy Ludwig Bemelmans ( It looked French to me where my grandmother would make me walk straight and tall into our Catholic Church on Sundays dressed perfectly with white gloves down the main isle when I stayed over).

Ten Little Girls

Verse

there were ten little girls

abandoned

bound like in a jail

Chorus

Let me tell you my story

I'm the catholic girl

that didn't go away

Verse

There were ten little girls

that would never reveal

how they really feel

Chorus

Let me tell you my story

I'm the catholic girl

that didn't go away

Verse

There were ten little girls

lost in fairy tales

they were bound to be

sleeping beauties

Chorus

Let me tell you my story

I'm the catholic girl

that didn't go away

Verse

There were ten little girls

lined up in a row

tucked in beds

like my favorite fairy tale


There were sleeping little beauties


Ten little girls

ten little girls

Chorus


Ten little girls.......

2x

Chorus













Tuesday, June 9, 2020

Ten Little Girls #forcedabortion #song #lorijeanfinnila #fairytales #unreal #singersongwriter

The story of  my baby killed during a force abortion with all the other little girls there lined up with me with no parents forced against our wills.

Photo courtesy Karla Khodanian

Ten Little Girls

Verse
there were ten little girls
lost in fairy tales
they were bound like in a jail
lined up so unreal

Chorus
Let me tell you my story
of the catholic girl
that didn't go away

Verse
there were ten little girls
lined up in a row
never to reveal
how they really feel

Chorus
Let me tell you my story
of the catholic girl
that didn't go away

Verse
There were ten little girls
lost in fairy tales
like my favorite fairy tale
they were bound
to be sleeping beauties

Chorus
Let me tell you my story
of the catholic girl
that didn't go away

Verse
There were ten little girls
lost in fairy tales
like my favorite fairy tale
they were bound
to be sleeping beauties

Bridge
lined up in a row
laying like in a fairy tale
like little sleeping beauties


Ten little girls
ten little girls
Ten little girls.......










Friday, May 29, 2020

Brings back memories of me plucking on my pink plastic piano as a toddler..... #lorijeanfinnila #God #recording #freemusic

Though I felt close to God when being beaten close to death during abuse from my stalker I prayed for him to let me remain. Please feel free to download the song as well as the others under the "Am I Awake" album leaving it as .0 cents.

Close to God by Lori Jean Finnila

Brings back memories of me plucking on my pink plastic piano as a toddler the piano sounding like bells, fairies....

Image by pixel1 at Pixabay.

Close to God lyrics

Verse
I'm up one more day
The sun is shining
though I don't feel
as connected as others do
I'm still so grateful

Bridge
I feel I have much to do
I feel his message
I  fight to put into words
the meaning of my existence

Chorus
I feel so close to God
But I don't want to reach him too soon
Please tell him to love me
And let me remain

Verse
Another Sunday I can't make it to church
though I connect with those that perish
on a daily basis

Chorus
I feel so close to God
But I don't want to reach him too soon
Please tell him to love me
And let me remain

So close to God......
I feel so close to God

Tuesday, May 26, 2020

I Hold My Breath Before I Speak #abuse #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic

My Odyssey

You take everything, from me
my food, a place to sit
As I sit closed
in the window

I hold tight to my odyssey
to my wars
until I return home
return home

My choices are limited
I hold my breath
before I speak, move, or make a decision
How is this lucky?

(I know we've all felt this before.) #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic #COVID19 #relief

"My Odyssey" by Lori Jean Finnila



Image by Pexels from Pixabay.

Thursday, May 21, 2020

"Flying" #recording #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic #dandelions

I finally found a universal song in all the mess in my mind. It's certainly not that it came from mess, but, alas, I was able to convert it for everyone universally. Make it into what you want in your mind.

Much love.

Lori Jean Finnila

Flying (free music) Still not in the studio, so bear with me. This came out pretty good too though.



Photo by Comfreak at Pixabay.

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Recording "Am I Awake" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I wrote this album from pain but in a universal way. I just added the final for now of "Am I Awake" making the album name this track. I hope you enjoy it.



Friday, May 15, 2020

Am I Awake #new #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I thought to pick this song up and publish it after listening to a song by Ed Sheeran where I could connect with my lyrics, yet subside its actual content where it can be universal. I'm glad I did and another learning step toward my music.

Am I Awake

Verse
I know you want me or control me
I just want to put it away
and get lost in the music....

Chorus
Am I here
Am I awake
I take one step away
and I don't feel the pain

Verse
I feel it would be better
to let go of the past
and make beauty of a bad situation

Chorus
Am I here
Am I awake
I take one step away
and I don't feel the pain

Am I really here
I'm in shock again
Am I awake
Or am I dreaming

Verse
We fight to keep it quiet
but why do we have to do this
blood bursts till it spills over
quiet screams to no one

Chorus


Album Cover

Photo by Gerd Altmann at Pixabay.

Saturday, April 18, 2020

Adding to Simplicity Album #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #album #coronavirus #staystrong #domesticviolence

I picked four songs that I felt go well with my Simplicity album at bandcamp. Please follow along as I work on these when hopefully this fog in my throat clears as our air gets better.


They are as follows:

Rise Above with special thanks to Minor2Go Music

Verse
When I write my hand hurts
When I think my head aches
My eyes blur
when this happens
all I feel …..are the nerves

Chorus
You are the beast of heaven
though I'm feeling bruised,
torn and braised
I will rise above with you

Verse
I'm bouncing
When I'm happy with joy
I feel I'm blessed
when I feel I can anticipate
your direction
and knowing where I'm at
when..... you're around

Chorus

Verse
I can walk though it hurts
I can stand tall
though when I ride
it feels I'm falling
every time I come back.... again

Bridge
There's no sense of this direction
I know fate has its purpose
I was meant to see you
and be with you in.... every way

Chorus

I will rise above and sit beside you




Tears Turn
by Lori Jean Finnila with special thanks to  Minor2Go Music
 

Verse
Please love, listen to me....
I was raised not to talk
about all the things done
It seems hard to function.

Chorus
I could sit down and cry
till my tears turn to falls
or I can pick myself up
and joy that is meant for me right now

Verse
The farmers boots don't hurt me
The free food, gas and water I don't mind
I just want to put everything in a box
where I feel there's no harm

Chorus

Verse
I could look deeper than what's necessary
or see what's in front of me
I can't think of one day without you
You brought my life and happiness back to me

Bridge
I'm sorry for the pasts that's burdened me 
has left you at times all alone.
I get ridiculed for my cutting words
my flesh too botched for heaven

Chorus
I could sit down and cry
my tears turn to falls
repeat




Verse
I see the man
stand still in the park
park is empty
I know there is more too

Chorus
This day is more important everyday
I feel this to you
from the message from above
and inside of me

Verse
Another stares with a frown
the humble reaches
for a question to be answered
all is fine
I'm right here with you

Chorus

Verse
I know you're scared
But I'm scared too
I listen to all the comments
trying to reach to you

Bridge
My mind has never been taken so far
even with all the tiniest darkest corners of our world
just takes a moment to forget this
when I can still feel
the warm hand in mine

Chorus

I'm right here with you
right here with you
I'm right here with you
right here with you



My Odyssey
Way Too Early
So Close to God
I'll Stand Strong
Leave This World


Wednesday, April 15, 2020

"Flying" by Lori Jean Finnila #newsong #lyrics #staystrong #stayhome #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Flying

Verse
I feel the dark spaces
inbetween my head
There's no air
For me to breathe in

Chorus
I am flying high
I'm flying low
I'm flying alone
Which thing should I turn into
Which way should I walk into

Verse
The quiet, the small looking pebbles in my view surrounded by blue
The deepest darkest color
you could ever imagine
Almost beautiful too

Chorus
I am flying high
I'm am flying low
I am flying alone
Which thing should I turn into
Which way should I walk into

Verse
It's all already been answered
Unfortunately to me
I just have to get it
The way I need to be

Bridge
It's solemn as it's always been
There's no changing to this

Chorus
I am flying high
I'm am flying low
I am flying alone
Which thing should I turn into
Which way should I walk into


 



Sunday, April 12, 2020

Happy Easter!! Free Song Written for Coronavirus "Right Here" in Demo form #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #coronavirus #Oregon #world UnitedStates #HappyEaster #staystrong

Demo "Right Here"


Photo by Alena Koval from Pexels
Lyrics:
Right Here


Verse
I see the man
stand still in the park
park is empty
I know there is more too

Chorus
This day is more important everyday
I feel this to you
from the message from above
and inside of me

Verse
Another stares with a frown
the humble reaches
for a question to be answered
all is fine
I'm right here with you

Chorus
This day is more important everyday
I feel this to you
from the message from above
and inside of me

Verse
I know you're scared
But I'm scared too
I listen to all the comments
trying to reach to you

Bridge
My mind has never been taken so far
even with all the tiniest darkest corners of our world
just takes a moment to forget this
when I can still feel
the warm hand in mine

Chorus
This day is more important everyday
I feel this to you
from the message from above
and inside of me


I'm right here with you
right here with you
I'm right here with you
right here with you

 

Thursday, April 2, 2020

Lori Jean Finnila ISSA USA Female Single Of The Year Nominee 2020 #pleasevote #press #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #music #award #issa


 Press Release

"Dying Burning Body" by Lori Jean Finnila


Please Vote Under USA Female Singer of the Year




International Singer-Songwriters Association USA Female Single of the Year 2020 Award for a song titled "Dying Burning Body" that expresses her pain when she doesn't even know it appears in the dark, and blank to the fog in her brain, to her dying burning body. She wants others to know how it feels after you've been abused, even if it's been so many years.


Follow me as the red carpet ceremony approaches toward the end of this year August 1rst in Dawsonville, GA.

Special thanks to @Minor2GoMusic.






Friday, March 27, 2020

Simplicity #updated #release #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Simplicity is in review again possibly delaying its release date because of cover issues. I just fixed it and hope that the date will concur to the original release date. I've attached a copy of the mastered song from my google drive for those not wanting to wait until its release. Once again happy times for you and yours and I hope you're staying safe. I reiterate I felt this was a good time to release this song of emotion and love that we all feel as vulnerable human beings.

Simplicity download

I also have it at my bandcamp music artist page for free. Song is registered with BMI for media outlets.


Wednesday, March 11, 2020

"For You" by Lori Jean Finnila #newsong #release #military #war #lorijeanfinnila





For those away at war and us at home. Out digitally at your favorite streaming venue April 22, 2020.

"For You" by Lori Jean Finnila with Special Thanks to @MINOR2GO Music. Photo Courtesy Pixabay at Pexels.

Saturday, March 7, 2020

Wednesday, February 19, 2020

Gets Me Killed #newsong #hiphop #lorijeanfinnila #brains

How I feel on most days when I'm trying to write my songs.

Song "Gets Me Killed"


This photo displays how I feel most of the time when an my mind begins to work.

Friday, February 7, 2020

My #newsong #lyrics My Hard Journey Home "My Odyssey" #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #femaleartist



My Odyssey

Verse
You take everything away from me
I'm to be glad to have rent paid
food, a place to sit
As I sit closed in from your actions

Chorus
I hold tight to my odyssey
to my wars
until I return home
I return home

Verse
My choices are limited
I hold my breath
before I speak, move, or make a decision
How is this lucky?

Chorus
I hold tight to my odyssey
to my wars
until I return home
I return home

Verse
I've lost all my vanities, pleasures
thrown in life
captured held tight
taken down below the water to idealize
and find my highest wishes of beauty

Bridge
But I sit here
and hold my breath
until I can move

Chorus
I hold tight to my odyssey
to my wars
until I return home

I return home


Photo by suzukii xingfu from Pexels

Friday, January 31, 2020

Press Release Song "Guns Pulled" Preparing for Release on National Gun Survivors Week #gunviolence #survivors #abused #lorijeanfinnila

 "Guns Pulled" is written by singer and songwriter Lori Jean Finnila who shares her personal story of tragedy with gun violence. Her situation is an abusive situation that carries on from control to devastating physical violence that involves guns.

More....


Press



Top 20 This Week #mpgradio #Canada #abusesurvivor #lorijeanfinnila #Top20

Top 20 this week at @mpgradio in Canada. So proud. "When All the Guilt is Gone" by Lori Jean Finnila #lorijeanfinnila #abusesurvivor not being able to love your abuser except when they're not around #singersongwriter http://lorijeanfinnila.bandcamp.com Watch for more new survivor releases coming soon!! "Dying Burning Body" and "Guns Pulled!" 
 Feb. 14, 2020 digital release worldwide through Amuse in Sweden on new music day. This is a song showing long term affects from abuse - Lori's personal story she shares so you can see many others.
Many thanks to Martin Minor at @minor2gomusic for his trusted music loops.

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

For Those Who Have Gone Through Hell #disgusted #newsong My Distant Self Recording #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #punk

For those of us who have gone through 'Hell' and feel you're looking like 'Hell' and then someone comes around and does something nice for you!!! This funny song is for you. I've been wanting to do a punk song so bad, so I finally did.