Singer and Songwriter

 I have a new EP coming out next year by my birthday June 2021. I'm finally able to write and produce comfortably coming from being a survivor myself. I had questioned many of the tones and lyrics I was using. As free as it is in a feeling I wanted to feel proud of the intelligence in my lyrics and the producing. I can safely say I 've found a few songs to do this. Coming to my highest point I've let go of everything inside me and was left with beauty in the new EP "Surviving Angel" where I talk of still being here leaving so many abused behind not with us anymore and many still struggling to survive years later after the physical affects onto their bodies which I tried to express in "Dying Burning Body," which was unsuccessful as well as banned at times along with *The Beast of Heaven." I think I've found a medium by using freedom in my body.  "Surviving Angel" EP Example Cover "War is Over" - To the point of acceptance. Lyr

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Merry Christmas and enjoy my gift to you "This Christmas" by Lori Jean Finnila. The wonderful Martin Minor at looperman.com composed the music for this.  "This Christmas" Please feel free to download this and burn it to a CD along with your other favorite Christmas songs.   Photo by monicore at Pexels.

 Please feel free to download and enjoy the instrumental while I work on the song. Here are the lyrics:                                                   Image by  Stefan Keller  from  Pixabay   I'm mysterious Maybe not What you're looking for, me What you think I am   You may be sick Too much  of what you believe  to be too big or  it's just you Is that too nice to say Even coming from me   You're distaste in life Or even you're choices Show vulgar acts Don't touch me  one more time Though if I say It doesn't matter anyway   You think you are it all But you are just as small As you're beliefs   Come here baby You lost little lamb I will coat you with sugar All over and put you to bed   And when you have  bad dreams, nightmares You will sink into the walls  you've made for all of us   So don't fear  your world it is just  as a part of us  as you   Your world Your wor

  Photo from Pixabay Surviving Angel Verse How can I take in  Such things  that don't seem real What am I to learn from this Or grow as it feels How can you grow  from something so awful How can you feel proud being one  of the ones left standing Chorus Am I the strength  or have I always been  to walk down this surreal path  as the surviving Angel Verse Please tell me Everything will be okay I've been strong Not to break down  or cried to all the pain Around me It's so unreal Chorus Am I the strength  or have I always been  to walk down this surreal path  as the surviving Angel Verse Please take me Where I'm supposed to be No one should have to  survive and feel this pain  Home Home The surviving Angel Bridge Please tell me where to walk where to go what am I to do Who should I serve Under God The surviving angel It's so unreal  outside of it  and maybe in the home Chorus Verse Come make it real Come make it right So I can know I'm on the right path my journey

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   My Open Doors Collection  contribution as a gun shot survivor victim taken down with it to sexual abuse. My Gun Shot Survivor Song during Coronavirus out around Thanksgiving. Photo by  Agnese Lunecka  from  Pexels

 After initial attempts to be taken down in NYC, I ended up home, where it appeared to have started.  Having a best friend refer me to a house where I could rent a room, druggings, creeps in the middle of the night in my bed, and then eventually turned to fondling. I had to desperately try to escape acts that I had no idea where they were coming from, of what I now believe to be steps toward human trafficking. I didn't know about the romanticize step and it wasn't easy to get me past this one to pass me on to others. Feeling desperate and alone I gave in to isolation where I had no support from family and friends or authorities and even had to question their involvement at times being told to go to non reputable bars when I went for help of being drugged by juvenile cops - learning later they were trying to get me pregnant at this point after so many attempts to get me to go meet other people through romanticizing.   I was eventually put in a room with no lock on the door. My p

 I came up with this from a few songs I've already written but not professionally distributed, "Those Unseen," "Am I Awake," and a new one I had been working on. I had originally used a loop from Martin Minor at Minor2Go music for "Those Unseen." I like how it goes to this as well where I can just change the pitch for a chorus. He did the loop so beautifully. I have to look for it again tomorrow. These flowers are withered but they've learned to grow hard. Photo by  Juanjo Menta  from  Pexels Cries Too Far Verse I hear cries and screams I said pray, hold on beg or plead look far outside comfort Chorus Cries too far from the mind their fate never measured in weight Verse We fight to keep this quiet why do we do this Our cries are never seen Chorus Cries too far from the mind their fate never measured in weight Verse Our body becomes a machine to reconstruct Our mind never learned to heal or cope Bridge Injuries become a

  I was thought of as incomprehensible ever since a toddler because of my convulsions. I sit here today and cry from missing my mom and dad's funeral running from the hectic in my life. Photo by  Pixabay  from  Pexels Underwater at SoundCloud Lyrics Verse I saw you looking at me So peculiar You thought I didn't see My way to you My way here Chorus Though I looked underwater I could hear everything around me I tried to tell you mom So many times Verse Mother would sleep and not see Father would panic frantically When he'd see my face on the cover Of a rock n roll album Chorus Though I looked underwater I could hear everything around me I tried to tell you mom So many times Verse Dad would still buy the records Mom would still play the music As I plucked for you Stared at you Barely speaking Bridge I knew the chords I was playing Even though they made no sense to you I was riding down the hall to save alla In my red

  The Best Place I'm hot my mind is not in the right place You're not in my vicinity real close to me Chorus I'm not in the best place I can be right now for you and me Verse I feel alone most of the time all around me even when you're home Chorus Verse I feel you should talk or come touch me I feel I need to be connected more so you can see how I feel Bridge I don't want to leave but these feelings leave me to such a place away from here Chorus I'm not in the best place I can be right now for you and me Photo by  Masha Raymers  from  Pexels

A song that I was so inclined to redo!!! 

Photo by Řaj Vaishnaw from Pexels "So Grateful" by Lori Jean Finnila Verse I look down at my boots below as I felt my hands touch the floor inside of me remembering me on a floor just like this on drugs Chorus I felt so grateful as I anguished of that time to have a home as my after thought away from it all verse My head would lift in the dark, my groggy mind to see things I shouldn't know as girls disappear right before my eyes Chorus Verse I cringe still today of the sights of the moments in my life the fear still remains Bridge There's so much more to this the girl's hand I held still haunts me to this day when I saw her go down her body shook like I've known Chorus I felt so grateful as I anguished of that time to have a home as my after thought away from it all

In “The Virtuous Woman,” that connects this story to the song “Rich in War,” I'm naming five characteristics of three characters that start the movie that I'm adding to that I wrote: The dad, the mom, and the grandmother – on the father's side. They make the setup for the beginning of movie with trouble, later in strength, and ending in resolution for the main character of a young woman who had to leave home at 14 in the 50's named Celia. The bright eyed strawberry blond with light eyes was so eager to life but with many questions unanswered before she ventured the cruel world, sometimes making mistakes when she ventured out on her own but learning from them. " Rich in War " video produced by Lori Jean Finnila . (The wars of woman.) Dad: troubled because he was confused , flimsy in his decisions though he didn't see this, determined, insubstantial , Mom: feeble, delicate, frail, fracturable shivery, Grandmother: crisp, durable, unbreakable, co

I was able to get the lyrics lined up to what actually happened to me when I was taken at 17 taken by an abusive boyfriend at the time to an abortion clinic and bound without my parents along with many other little girls. One of my favorite French fairy tale books was "Madeline" given to me by my French grandmother. The smallest character in the book was Madeline. I was always so small because I almost died from convulsions when I was a toddler - I had a hard time eating and digesting food and wasn't growing after that for a long time. I was in shock after I was drugged that day and had my baby taken from my body after its necked was cracked because I was too far along and thrown into a trash can when I was walked into a room with all these other little girls lined up perfectly exactly tucked into sleeping beds; I almost died from bleeding to death but one of the girls spooked at the counselor that was letting me bleed out so I got stuffed with a towel when the counselor

The story of  my baby killed during a force abortion with all the other little girls there lined up with me with no parents forced against our wills. Photo courtesy Karla Khodanian Ten Little Girls Verse there were ten little girls lost in fairy tales they were bound like in a jail lined up so unreal Chorus Let me tell you my story of the catholic girl that didn't go away Verse there were ten little girls lined up in a row never to reveal how they really feel Chorus Let me tell you my story of the catholic girl that didn't go away Verse There were ten little girls lost in fairy tales like my favorite fairy tale they were bound to be sleeping beauties Chorus Let me tell you my story of the catholic girl that didn't go away Verse There were ten little girls lost in fairy tales like my favorite fairy tale they were bound to be sleeping beauties Bridge lined up in a row laying like in a fairy tale like little sleeping beauties Ten little girls ten little g

Though I felt close to God when being beaten close to death during abuse from my stalker I prayed for him to let me remain. Please feel free to download the song as well as the others under the "Am I Awake" album leaving it as .0 cents. Close to God by Lori Jean Finnila Brings back memories of me plucking on my pink plastic piano as a toddler the piano sounding like bells, fairies.... Image by pixel1 at Pixabay. Close to God lyrics Verse I'm up one more day The sun is shining though I don't feel as connected as others do I'm still so grateful Bridge I feel I have much to do I feel his message I  fight to put into words the meaning of my existence Chorus I feel so close to God But I don't want to reach him too soon Please tell him to love me And let me remain Verse Another Sunday I can't make it to church though I connect with those that perish on a daily basis Chorus I feel so close to God But I don't want to reach him too soon Please tell him to love

My Odyssey You take everything, from me my food, a place to sit As I sit closed in the window I hold tight to my odyssey to my wars until I return home return home My choices are limited I hold my breath before I speak, move, or make a decision How is this lucky? (I know we've all felt this before.) #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #freemusic #COVID19 #relief " My Odyssey " by Lori Jean Finnila Image by Pexels from Pixabay.

I finally found a universal song in all the mess in my mind. It's certainly not that it came from mess, but, alas, I was able to convert it for everyone universally. Make it into what you want in your mind. Much love. Lori Jean Finnila Flying (free music) Still not in the studio, so bear with me. This came out pretty good too though. Photo by Comfreak at Pixabay.

I wrote this album from pain but in a universal way. I just added the final for now of "Am I Awake" making the album name this track. I hope you enjoy it. Am I Awake

I thought to pick this song up and publish it after listening to a song by Ed Sheeran where I could connect with my lyrics, yet subside its actual content where it can be universal. I'm glad I did and another learning step toward my music. Am I Awake Verse I know you want me or control me I just want to put it away and get lost in the music.... Chorus Am I here Am I awake I take one step away and I don't feel the pain Verse I feel it would be better to let go of the past and make beauty of a bad situation Chorus Am I here Am I awake I take one step away and I don't feel the pain Am I really here I'm in shock again Am I awake Or am I dreaming Verse We fight to keep it quiet but why do we have to do this blood bursts till it spills over quiet screams to no one Chorus Album Cover Photo by Gerd Altmann at Pixabay.

I picked four songs that I felt go well with my Simplicity album at bandcamp. Please follow along as I work on these when hopefully this fog in my throat clears as our air gets better. They are as follows: Rise Above with special thanks to Minor2Go Music Verse When I write my hand hurts When I think my head aches My eyes blur when this happens all I feel …..are the nerves Chorus You are the beast of heaven though I'm feeling bruised, torn and braised I will rise above with you Verse I'm bouncing When I'm happy with joy I feel I'm blessed when I feel I can anticipate your direction and knowing where I'm at when..... you're around Chorus Verse I can walk though it hurts I can stand tall though when I ride it feels I'm falling every time I come back.... again Bridge There's no sense of this direction I know fate has its purpose I was meant to see you and be with you

Flying Verse I feel the dark spaces inbetween my head There's no air For me to breathe in Chorus I am flying high I'm flying low I'm flying alone Which thing should I turn into Which way should I walk into Verse The quiet, the small looking pebbles in my view surrounded by blue The deepest darkest color you could ever imagine Almost beautiful too Chorus I am flying high I'm am flying low I am flying alone Which thing should I turn into Which way should I walk into Verse It's all already been answered Unfortunately to me I just have to get it The way I need to be Bridge It's solemn as it's always been There's no changing to this Chorus I am flying high I'm am flying low I am flying alone Which thing should I turn into Which way should I walk into  

Demo "Right Here" Photo by Alena Koval from Pexels Lyrics: Right Here Verse I see the man stand still in the park park is empty I know there is more too Chorus This day is more important everyday I feel this to you from the message from above and inside of me Verse Another stares with a frown the humble reaches for a question to be answered all is fine I'm right here with you Chorus This day is more important everyday I feel this to you from the message from above and inside of me Verse I know you're scared But I'm scared too I listen to all the comments trying to reach to you Bridge My mind has never been taken so far even with all the tiniest darkest corners of our world just takes a moment to forget this when I can still feel the warm hand in mine Chorus This day is more important everyday I feel this to you from the message from above and inside of