Getting a little Christmas cheer going! Might do a singing show that day or the nite before... or both!! What do you think of that?! Watch for it here and mark your calendar as the day gets closer. AND I'm thinking of giving you kids for your album a completely brand new song that I think is one of my best, "Kick Stop Pushed," that I've been working on (Demo YouTube link). Yeah!! I think this might help in addition to your cd sales. Can take early Christmas orders for this bonus edition to the album once I announce closer to the date. Do a Black Friday prerelease showing of what will come for those who leave deposits towards your albums.
Always Write Something that You Can Say You Believe In
There's so many changes in our lives that each book our minds change to the feelings written in them. If we be frank and know ourselves this won't happen.
My Brain Injury by Lori Finnila
Given away free in the web by people I don't know.
It's almost 6 years to date, or could be six years by now, don't have the exact date of the worst of the head injuries with the gunshot wound to the head that left me very incoherent in the long run process of its outcome, but somewhat to the other bodily injuries - there was so much going on constantly - but I can see the difference. My efforts aren't so hardly used, my mind isn't so tortured to speak and think, and I'm sure there are those that notice, and I thank you for this. If I can recap, it's been a long 20 years and plus, once again it's been hard to identify the whereabouts in this day and age of all the consistencies of injuries from whom and where when it's been so long throughout and continuously covered up: but I've almost finished college to get that tassel after being told I wouldn't retain information and detained from assistance to it, soloed my own LP produced by a well known reputable label that sought me out as I was aspiring to this after never being given the chance to lead in school to this after going back, and gaining financial independence with consistency of having everything taken away from me. I watched Hoovey tonight. This post is inspired by this movie.
I've learned that I'm Portuguese, but really Portuguese. I remember the love and warmth mostly from The Holy Ghost Grounds I would go to as a child with my family, mostly my mother, that would celebrate the Portuguese culture. I loved it. I felt a place of where I fit in and felt loved. I remember the love from my mother the most even when those around me fought me to this feeling, she still endured and hoped I would hold on to it. We fought to the end and she ended up dying at a time when I was still running from the opposers keeping us apart. I do remember the love from my dad as he held me and I kissed his ear - easier days when our family was allowed to love one another with not too much interruption. I accept that your marked in America, shunned, and cast - even by your own family members, to be attainable to outsiders with no consideration to speech of the situation, as a molested child from outsiders - though I never had the full impact. I don't understand this and don't agree. I understand I'm a woman and the choice to have sex with me against my wishes, even still in this day and age, is still very attainable and widely accepted even in America - we haven't changed much from the single or even lower numbered eras to this type of grabbing to be expected for release. Unfortunately other women go against one another to detain from this so it doesn't make it any safer with relying on just female guidance or supposing that a larger variety of this would help. It took me all these years to know and understand this system and how it works.
I decided to write a book after listening to Rebecca Campbell tonite after I joined her Rise Sister Group. She helped me get to that book that was inside of me. I learned a bit of how to get it published from a free book publishing video series from Hay House where I want it published.
So here it is: it will be a guide for little girls lost, as I was, and I think a lot of us little girls. I want to catch them before so much time is lost with all I learned. Of course it's a Gaulish attempt as all my work, but I think well worth writing.
A small snippet:
Little Girls: A Guide to Being a Little Girl
I felt lost most of my little life. I felt I couldn't talk. I felt I couldn't share. I don't know why. What I do know is the more I felt this the longer it went on in my life.
It could have been something as simple as not knowing how to read a smile, word, or gesture towards me. I was a confused little girl. Yet, I had stars in my eyes like any other little girl. I wanted to be a star. I wanted to be a princess.. a mother… a wife, and even at a time a bottle capper at a brewery with my best friend like Laverne and Shirley.
Why did I feel so lost if I had so many of the same feelings as other little girls? I know today now that we all were a little lost. But why? Most of our mommas loved us. Our grandmas were there for us. Was this a time and place that was so different from today? I don't think so.
I still see little girls unsure to express themselves even in the most loving families. What makes me the expert? I guess because I'm willing to talk. Most people, especially woman, feel uncomfortable to this - especially in a book. In a nut shell I don't want to see many more lives of innocence in little girls to go wasted.
Innocence is beautiful in little girls but the very thin line, and I say very as fast in thin in seconds or minutes, it can change to something in almost all of us. Why is this? And more importantly, how can we change this to a possible more positive experience or make the lines not so thin in its speed coming at us so we don't see it to be able to deal with it and make change – even in our little lives? I think by reading a book from me that is an expert in loneliness.
End of snippet.
And with a page a day, or less should be done in 6 months. A book for girls doesn't need 365 pages. And the rejection or acception should come much earlier from Hay House. It only takes 4 weeks. Will keep you posted.
I made the Oct. EP release into an album since there was a system error at the anticipated release time with the following songs so I thought to make you a new highlight. Just checked on the status of the release today and it appears everything is running accordingly. The old "There's a Way Through" is down. "She Finds the Chords Herself" and "What About Good Old Eve" will be down in the next couple of days and hopefully the new album including these two songs will be up at iTunes when this happens or at least close to this time.
Ashes on My Cup
There's a Way Through
I Put on My Gloves
Though I'm One Less
He Holds Me Right
Aesop Made Abel
Johnny's in Mars
What About Good Old Eve
When She Was Young (feat. Ned Euphorya)
I hope you enjoy this!! Now all my best songs are out between the Factory Fast Solo CD and this upcoming digital one. And hopefully the exposure to the tracks included that are toward the Teens at Crossroads song project CD listed under pages on this blog will become more valuable with the exposure it receives from this album.
Sorry for the confusion today with my release "There's a Way Through" release. I don't know what happened but you will be even happier in a few days when it regoes up and you can listen to the entire thing in Spotify with MORE songs added to it.
Love you guys!!
I'll give you guys the demo to "Kickstop Pushed" as a consolation.