Sweet Dancing Angels for my daughter in heaven

Sunday, September 27, 2026

Desert Flower #lorijeanfinnila #writing #desertflower

 




Image by thedropssquad from Pixabay



Desert Flower


Would she ever fit in


Looking at what was right in front of her

She noticed it was different 

For this reason she was drawn to it


She nestled herself onto it.



She looked right there

She looked pretty

She looked artistic

She looked comfortable, happy, 

Even where she belonged


Unfortunately her feelings of contentment came upon her

This she was use to

She could never figure out why

Mostly it would make her cry


She so wanted to belong and fit in

Perhaps maybe be like everyone else and no one would notice:

Her stumble, pause, stare, peculiar faces and eyes,

The breath she was losing the longer she stayed around

Perhaps she wasn’t the desert flower.



Saturday, September 19, 2026

Half Covered #song #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #autonomy #humantraffickingcontrol





Me: ‘what does pushing the females legs a little when you have them in a vulnerable position mean in human trafficking: I was pushed into the wall being wheeled out of the operating room and in an er after a car accident another man unconnected to healthcare came in and pushed my legs around.’

A human trafficker wants to make a victim feel he controls her legs to strip away her physical autonomy and stop her from trying to run away or escape. : if they started this out in a hospital the female being gransported on a gurney, and again on a gurney in an ER does this fit
To answer your question directly: Yes, this scenario is a highly plausible and documented tactic used by traffickers to establish psychological and physical dominance [Health 1].
In the context of a story or character study, starting this manipulation while a victim is on a hospital gurney is effective for several reasons:
Why a Hospital/Gurney Setting Fits the Tactic
  • Inherent Loss of Autonomy: Being strapped into or lying on a gurney automatically restricts movement. In a hospital or emergency room (ER) setting, patients are expected to remain still, defer to authority figures, and allow others to transport them. This environment perfectly masks the trafficker's coercive control as "medical necessity" or care.
  • Exploitation of Vulnerability: If the victim is already injured, sedated, or physically weak, the trafficker can easily manipulate her perception. They might tell her she cannot walk, that her legs are paralyzed, or that she will injure herself further if she tries to move.
  • The "Savior" Complex: By controlling her movement in a chaotic ER environment, the trafficker isolates her from medical staff. They position themselves as her sole protector, spokesperson, and caregiver, which deepens psychological dependency (often leading to trauma bonding) [Health 1].



Saturday, August 29, 2026

Pheasants and Kings #poetry #lorijeanfinnila #womenwriters


Image by Lisa Yount from Pixabay



Pheasants and Kings


What I learned:


Feeling love and security 

Relies on Relationships


Poverty Belies a bigger problem


Servants and pheasants 

For what would be 

Without the friendship of thee


Sunday, August 16, 2026

Right Before My Eyes #strangulation #domesticviolence #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 


You have a greater chance of serious harm or even death once your partner has put his hands around your neck.


I still worry over 35 years later.

Saturday, August 15, 2026

I Drink the Earth As the Drip Seeds Suround Me #womenwriters #literature #lorijeanfinnila

 



Image by Briam Cute from Pixabay


I drink the earth

As the drip seeds surround me


I move as my bones crack 

I ignore them

I have better things to do


I listen to the poets that bring me joy

I lay with my feet up on the bed

I find relinquishment from this

The ease of stress releasing from my body

I feel my existence of me come back again


I twinkle feeling the touch of my intelligence 

which brings me so much joy and harmony

Even though the dredges still drip around me


I dot in the corner hovered over my ball

I worry my back will stay round and bent from this

I feel fire in my stomach 

Pressing up my throat as it passes


I find delight in the literary genius

That brings me joy



Leaves Falling #womenauthors #poetry #literature #lorijeanfinnila

 


Friday, August 7, 2026

She Walked Out On Her Own #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #love

 


Image by Sunrise from Pixabay


And the girl she left

She walked by his life

Even though she was supposed to stay

She walked out on her own


But I still love that girl 

Though she's the bad one to everyone 

She walked out in her own


Everyone tells me to stay away

I can't help thinking about her smile


She has spunk 

She has style

She has no crumbs of him on her

Maybe I don't have to feel like all


She had a mind of her own

Did what she felt was best for her

She walked out on her own


This girl I love 

Though she's bad to everyone 

I cover her permanent dark eyes 

as though I'm the angel to cover them up

She walked out on her own

Monday, June 29, 2026

Am I Awake and The Beast of Heaven Celebrating 1 Million Views #singersongwriter #abuse #lorijeanfinnila





Lifetime of Abuse 

Free songs in side bar.


Yes, you can develop a deviated septum naturally over the course of your life. While many people are born with the condition, natural developmental growth, aging, and chronic inflammation can cause or worsen a deviated septum over time.

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/16924-deviated-septum


While a deviated septum is often congenital or the result of direct trauma, chronic inflammation in the nasal passages can lead to structural changes. Repetitive swelling or conditions associated with it, such as chronic rhinosinusitis or intranasal irritants, can alter the nasal mucosa and sometimes cause or worsen septal displacement over time.


https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/deviated-septum/symptoms-causes/syc-203


Sunday, May 31, 2026

Why Am I Feeling This Way #writing #lorijeanfinnila



Image by Agata from Pixabay



Not definitive or open enough to put into words

No absolute direction

Just actions I take each day


My every move I make is to make me beautiful to you

My body and my mind is always pushing towards that way

To take me closer to that place

I want to be beautiful to you

That’s how I feel when I see you


When you’re not here I’m inventive

I work hard on new ideas to recreate myself

I panic in a race

Though I try to stop myself from pushing too hard

I always come up with a new idea

I’m nearing you

That’s how I feel when I think of you


My every move I make is to make me beautiful to you

My body and my mind is always pushing towards that way

To take me closer to that place

I want to be beautiful to you

That’s how I feel when I see you


Each time I take a step I’m feeling you

You’re getting pretty close to me

I’m feeling better about myself

I see peaks of beauty 

I feel my mind moving in the right direction 

I feel the words

I may be a person to you


My every move I make is to make me beautiful to you

My body and my mind is always pushing towards that way

To take me closer to that place

I want to be beautiful to you

That’s how I feel when I see you 


I’m almost ready to reach you.

Desert Flower #lorijeanfinnila #writing #desertflower

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