God Please Let Me Wake-Up #writing #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 

My mind goes when I need help

I have to take something that affects me like a child

I fight many wars with many people 

Here I go down again

Image by Tim Hill from Pixabay

Please God let me wake tomorrow morning

I take the gold liquid I now poke with a pin

To make sure I don’t get too much in my body from the pill

It can take me down so bad, especially after that crash of my head into the closet mirror

I could feel my had get sucked in or was it just an illusion now

Please God let me wake up tomorrow morning

My body is in so much pain now from the effects of abuse

I need help from my liquid gold that makes my mind like a child, one for the pain and many other different pills for energy to follow as they collide in my body and make me sick

I have one more day I can get through 

I’m taken down to a state I know I have no control over

I don’t know if I’ll be lucky enough to wake up this morning coming

Please God let me wake up tomorrow morning

As I surrender to the liquid I feel my mind go to a place of peace, in a different place than my own

Feeling I might be lucky this time again to my fate.

No Direction #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #beautycreations

 

Image by Alexa from Pixabay

Not knowing your state of mind leaves you in limbo

Not being able to hold onto anything steadily, stable, 

or physically leaves a place with no answers

A place of choice where there’s no known outcome

But the outcome to a chance of happiness made through 

a choice of freedom

A choice of freedom not only do you not know 

the outcome to but others don’t either

One good thing about this is when others don’t know

they can’t stop you from your outcomes 

Your beauty that comes out is true to you with no distractions.

Merchandise #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #merchandise

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“I Thought I Needed To Be Loved To Be Beautiful Song” #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #newsonglyrics

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 Verse

I used to be so pretty

Then one day it went away

I could hardly see myself

I lost myself

When I lost my looks 

I couldn’t believe it

It came on strong with a blow

Then took me down slowly

I didn’t know who I was

Chorus

I thought I needed love to be beautiful 

I cried inside to be beautiful 

I wished for a man every minute

To make this happen

Verse

Then one day it came back

I’ll never take advantage of it again

I’ll never feel I need love to feel pretty again

Chorus

Verse

Today I dance like a girl

A girl I once knew

I’ll never take advantage again

Of the beauty I now have again

Bridge

The happiness I feel

I can’t be thankful enough

I skip like a little girl

And twirl in my shoes 

All I need is what I feel

Chorus

Possible Book Title - “My Journey To a Fairly Good Life: The Life I Accept #womenauthors #acceptance #lorijeanfinnila #book

 

Photos by Geralt  and Alexas_Fotos at Pixabay.

I’ve been wanting to write a book and I’m painfully honest so I thought this title would be perfect. It keeps it a bit impersonal but still very relating. It draws on universal measures we take but perhaps different ones I’ve had to take and accept. ‘Accept’ is a TOUGH one.Being left maimed and the characters who did it to me running is a VERY hard thing to live with. My life has NEVER been easy since. Am I to take blame for choosing a socially non-acceptable path?

“The Women’s Story” #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #flowersinthedark #podcast

 

Photo by alexxloo from Pixabay.com. 

I’m relating to the women’s cries from so long ago.

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“Women Who Speak Are Beaten”

Verse

Through the castles on sacred land

Many cries we’ve heard from so long ago

So light deep down buried

So surreal far away into another 

land, time, place

Another dark, scary door

That opens and carries into the same tunnel

Chorus

Women gather to watch those that speak get beaten

How will we know the women’s story, cry to survive

The world needs to know

Dark and cold 

So dark so cold

So cold so deep

Too deep to mention

Verse

360 to today

The cries are the same

I still hear them from the faraway lands

Bridge

Some are locked somewhere inside

They need peace, courage, and love

To go to heaven stopping the persecution 

All the way to our ancient mothers

Chorus

They’re So Cold #writing #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 Today was the second day of The Goddess Channeling Workshop with Rebecca Campbell. I certainly got more writing. I can’t fully understand where it’s going. It can be deep, eerie, and beautiful at the same time. I’m letting it flow as instructed and following my theme with this work. We’ll see where it goes. 

Photo by Brin Weins at Pixabay.com.

She is there far away

Dark and cold 

So cold so deep

So light deep down buried

The sun shines so yellow

Fills the sky 2 skies that fold

One to an unknown place

So surreal far away into another 

land, time, place

Another dark, scary door

That this purple sun opens

It carries to a tunnel

You’re beautiful you’re old

Not too old to die and be loved

Feeling you have to be young

To die to be loved

From dying too old to be loved

They want the cold to be known

Unsure they peek out

One from the right shines 

Brings warmth showing she is there too

1 light 1 dark 

1 in the light 

1 in the dark

Opening the door 

for the children to go to heaven

Be scared these children need heaven

They are locked inside somewhere

They need peace, courage, and love

Stay strong child

I can connect them with love

Rise sister rise 

You echo in my ears