"I'm Lyin' Up All Night" #newsong #EP #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Photo by Aleksandar Pasaric

Verse

Hate you the more I think of you

I want you the more that I think of you

You think this is the way to control me

I’ll fight and hurt inside

before I give into you

I lay up all night 

telling myself

I can do this

I can fly by this pain

I won’t crawl or beg

to make you understand

Chorus

I’m laying up all night again

I know I’m right

you’ve been wrong again

you can’t keep treating me this way

I won’t give you my love the right way

Verse

I know I’ve been lovable

you can’t see this

you want to control me

I can’t deal with this

 why can’t you just 

love me the way I am

Chorus

Verse

You want me to be the way that you want

I’ve never been able to do this

I only know how to be myself

How can I marry and be your queen

when you won’t let your princess beam

to lightest and darkest moments with you

I just want to touch you…..

oooo…. oooo… ooooo…..

repeat

Ok One More "I Could Part the Seas" #chances #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

I Could Part the Seas

Verse

Why can’t someone understand me

all I’m trying to do is the right thing

I’m solemn in my thoughts

I’m clean in my movements

If you gave me the chance

I could part the seas

that you could walk right through

I’m so strong 

when you’re beside me

but then you leave

I don’t know where I am

How can I be so helpless

and so strong so close to the same time

I’m seeing clear again now that you’re near me

but you get mad when I feel this way

why can’t I be the same things to you

both at the same time

Chorus

Verse

I’m not so bad

as you might think

I adore your face

and how you make me flush

My cheeks and my insides

jump around you

I know you want to have fun too

but you worry 

that’s not all that’s involved with this

why do you have to worry so much

Chorus

If you gave me the chance

I could part the seas

that you could walk right through

AllI need is for you to give me a chance

Boy I'm Writing It Up Today "Lost In a Sea of Darkenss #twonewsongs #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #podcast

 Two more songs for my podcast. Whooo hooo!!

Lost In a Sea of Darkness

Verse

I come out with the way you don’t want to hear it

I’m talking again the way it’s not popular

when will I learn

Chorus

I’m lost in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my way to normalness

where is it that I can’t find to be

Verse

I’m flying I’m floating alone

in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my home

I think I’ll rest in peace alone

Chorus

I’m lost in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my way to normalness

where is it 

that I can’t find to be

Verse

I think I’ve found a new way

I feel I’m opening up again

I feel the connecting

I know I’m on the right path

just to fall again

Perhaps I’m not so wrong

just born in a world not made for myself

where I can walk in a dimension and feel

comfortable on my own

if it were only safe

Chorus

I’m lost in a sea of darkness

I can’t find my way to normalness

where is it that I can’t find to be

lost in a sea of darkness

repeat

oooo oooo 

ooooooooo

I'm Lyin Up All Night

Verse

Hate you the more I think of you

I want you the more that I think of you

You think this is the way to control

I’ll fight and hurt inside

before I give into you

I lay up all night 

telling myself

I can do this

I can fly by this pain

I won’t crawl or beg

to make you understand me

Chorus

I’m laying up all night again

I know I’m right

you’ve been wrong again

you can’t keep treating me this way

I won’t give you my love the right way

Verse

I know I’ve been lovable

you can’t see this

you want to control me

I can’t deal with this

 why can’t you just 

love me the way I am

Chorus

Verse

You want me to be the way that you want

I’ve never been able to do this

I only know how to be myself

How can I marry and be your queen

when you won’t let your princess beam

to lightest and darkest moments with you

I just want to touch you…..

oooo…. oooo… ooooo…..

Chorus

I’m laying up all night again

I know I’m right

you’ve been wrong again 

you can’t keep treating me this way

I won’t give you my love the right way

Update "I'm Not Your Normal Girl" #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #podcast #update

I updated this song for an upcoming podcast. I hope you like it.

 Verse

I tell you to listen to me

I'm not normal

I need to know where I'm at in you

I need to feel my better half with you

I'm not your normal girl

I'm scrambled up in pain

I'm curled up holding myself

tight in my bed

I told you I'm in pain

I told you I'm not your normal girl

I'm sorry I cry 

I'm not normal

I need to do something

To be my equal

Even if I'm gonna die

I lose my breath

When I cry so hard

Telling you I can't live up to that you want

Trying to express myself to this

I see you get frustrated with me

I end up more crazy

you seem more scary

I now see myself by myself

talking to myself to this

I'm so very sad

my heart aches

I'm in pain

Why am I so emotionally scrambled

I see your love, feel your warmth

yet I know so deep inside 

you just want to use me

I'm sorry

I cry I'm not normal

I need to do something

To be my equal

Even if I'm gonna die

I'm not your normal girl......

"I'm In Heat" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Verse

You want to salsa

Instead of have a conversation

It gets too heated

I always have to draw the line

Chorus

I'm in heat

There's no way out

Can't get in a word in

It's too late for me

Verse

I always end up walking away

With no resolution in mind

I start from square one

Back to the beginning again

Will this never end

Chorus

Verse

I always have to draw the line

to a new scenario 

to the same circumstances

I keep running from

 I keep on looking anyway

"Gandiva's Bow" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Photo courtesy Glorious Hinduism

Verse

He's the one

that makes me stop and think

Though I don't usually do this

give anyone a minute of mine

I may love Van Gogh

But this one puts himself together

Like God has had 

a good day with Gandiva's bow

He skin may bronzy glisten

He may fly like Superman

Making my mind wild and strong

But I would probably still

wrestle him to the ground

And when if his presence 

made his way towards me

I may be closed in a cage

But I feel I can bust out

Forbidden Love #albumcover for No, No, No #release #2022 #lorijeanfinnila

 I'm working on picking out a cover for this single release love song. If I can't find a hot one of myself then I'm choosing between other artwork. Some samples are:

Hot fire for the steamy feeling that you are having a hard time denying.

Photo by Pavel Danilyuk from Pexels

With it having a Latin accent you have to have the dripping honey.

Photo by Jacek Jan Skorupski from Pexels

Our romanticizing is as strong as the act. (probably wouldn't be able to use this one where it's not me and can get confusing)

Photo by cottonbro from Pexels

This is like Oh my God!

Photo by Adrian Odogwu from Pexels

Nostalgic romanticism. (love this one the best)

Photo by Ibolya Toldi from Pexels

How Fast Love Happens #nonono #rewrite #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #forbiddenlove

It's amazing how fast things happen: the first glance, word spoken, simple touch. We know inside this is love. It's meant to be. I was inspired to update this song by the actress's line in a movie titled "The Princess and The Marine" 'I was born in the wrong place.'

Igor Shubin Photography

Verse

I say no though 

that's not what I mean

I want you, when I capture 

your presence near me

 Chorus

I can't do or think what  I want to

I was meant to never be this way

I was born in the wrong place

I was taught to say no

Verse

Time doesn't seem to have a place

My mind keeps coming back to you

Your words, your breath

The way I watch you move

Chorus

I can't do or think what  I want to

I was meant to never be this way

I was born in the wrong place

I was taught to say no

Verse 

I shudder when I see you leave

Knowing I'll never see you again

 Our worlds are miles apart

Yet I feel you so close when I see your eyes

I don't see any walls that holds us apart

Bridge

I can't do what I want to

I was promised I would never do

Never thinking on my own

Standing all alone

 Chorus

I can't do or think what  I want to

I was meant to never be this way

I was born in the wrong place

I was taught to say no

repeat

No, no, no, no, no, no ,no

Repeat

Oooooo

"Singing You Lullabies" #newsong #singersongwriter #lorijeanfinnila

 

I wrote this for my daughter whom my ex felt he didn't want and I was too young to make the decision at 17 he felt, so he set me up and killed our baby in her second trimester. I think of her every day. Some men don't realize this is our baby; it has no connection of how we feel for them.

Illustration courtesy of clip art library.

Verse

I’d climb so high with you

watching you swing in a swing

cherish your every move

Please don’t ever think

I never thought of these things with you

Chorus

I dream of singing you lullabies

that will bring you comfort

for the rest of your life

though you may not have heard me

I was singing them to you anyway

Verse

I think of them every day

as though you are here

though you never grew up

my mind can’t go that far

with this

Chorus

I dream of singing you lullabies

that will bring you comfort

for the rest of your life

though you may not have heard me

I was singing them to you anyway

Verse

I see your progression in life

I relate to your every level of thrive

I’ve been putting my effort to this

You have grown so far

in your mind

Bridge

I’m so proud

I’ve ben a part of this

You’re the biggest 

person I’ve ever seen

You know you’re the whole world around me

Chorus

I dream of singing you lullabies

that will bring you comfort

for the rest of your life

though you may not have heard me

I was singing them to you anyway

"Right Before My Eyes" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 This is from "My Life's Journey" here that I changed the name and put a clip of it here after practicing the recording for my podcast for this song "Right Before My Eyes." 

This is for the children that watch their mothers die, or are still sitting by their side while they try to recover from abuse.

Image by Jess Foami from Pixabay 

Clip of "Right Before My Eyes" at Google Drive and at Soundcloud. Watch for the podcast coming up soon at audible lori jean finnila.