Update "I'm Not Your Normal Girl" #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #podcast #update

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I updated this song for an upcoming podcast. I hope you like it.




 Verse

I tell you to listen to me

I'm not normal

I need to know where I'm at in you

I need to feel my better half with you

I'm not your normal girl


I'm scrambled up in pain

I'm curled up holding myself

tight in my bed

I told you I'm in pain


I told you I'm not your normal girl

I'm sorry I cry 

I'm not normal

I need to do something

To be my equal

Even if I'm gonna die


I lose my breath

When I cry so hard

Telling you I can't live up to that you want


Trying to express myself to this

I see you get frustrated with me

I end up more crazy

you seem more scary


I now see myself by myself

talking to myself to this

I'm so very sad

my heart aches

I'm in pain


Why am I so emotionally scrambled

I see your love, feel your warmth

yet I know so deep inside 

you just want to use me

I'm sorry

I cry I'm not normal

I need to do something

To be my equal

Even if I'm gonna die


I'm not your normal girl......

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