"Surviving Angel" New EP Out Next Year #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #survivor #EP

 I have a new EP coming out next year by my birthday June 2021. I'm finally able to write and produce comfortably coming from being a survivor myself. I had questioned many of the tones and lyrics I was using. As free as it is in a feeling I wanted to feel proud of the intelligence in my lyrics and the producing. I can safely say I 've found a few songs to do this. Coming to my highest point I've let go of everything inside me and was left with beauty in the new EP "Surviving Angel" where I talk of still being here leaving so many abused behind not with us anymore and many still struggling to survive years later after the physical affects onto their bodies which I tried to express in "Dying Burning Body," which was unsuccessful as well as banned at times along with *The Beast of Heaven." I think I've found a medium by using freedom in my body. 

"Surviving Angel" EP

Example Cover

"War is Over" - To the point of acceptance.

Lyrics:

War Is Over 

I've seen all the wars 

Picked my fingers on the thorns 

Picking strawberries....... 

Chorus War is over 

Over for me 

Verse 

Saw the destitute faces 

that didn't come home 

Times I was too late 

I stopped counting After three 

Virtual representations 

lined up 

I learned to dance with glee 

Chorus 

War is over 

Over for me 

Verse 

No more papers 

Just Petals on the ground 

Graces, Hail Mary's 

When I've done nothing wrong 

Running through fields 

Tall with sunflowers 

Touching my face 

running Past the terror 

 right through it all 

Chorus 

War is over 

Over for me 

Verse 

Caught those weaker than me 

Making my place 

Bringing my treasures home 

Had to learn to let them go 

Dragged my guns between my legs 

Had to climb the trees to stay alive 

I ran enough Climbed so high 

Begged for mercy Even at times 

War is over 

Over for me 

Even though I know many won't return 

War is still over for me War is over Over for me 

"Your World" - How close a Pedophile and sexual abuser can be to us - I stopped eating at 10 because a Pedophile was on my path and the police told my mother to tell me to ignore him. Later it appeared I had become a permanent victim on their list after the fondling outside my diaper - left with some mild effects.

"Surviving Angel" - The survivor within me feeling left as the warrior.

"Life Before You" - A song wishing your partner knew the value of you before you came along. 

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Merry Christmas and enjoy my gift to you "This Christmas" by Lori Jean Finnila. The wonderful Martin Minor at looperman.com composed the music for this. 

"This Christmas"

Please feel free to download this and burn it to a CD along with your other favorite Christmas songs. 

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Your World #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #rockhop

 Please feel free to download and enjoy the instrumental while I work on the song. Here are the lyrics:

                                                 Image by Stefan Keller from Pixabay 

I'm mysterious

Maybe not

What you're looking for, me

What you think I am

 

You may be sick

Too much 

of what you believe 

to be too big or 

it's just you

Is that too nice to say

Even coming from me

 

You're distaste in life

Or even you're choices

Show vulgar acts

Don't touch me 

one more time

Though if I say

It doesn't matter anyway

 

You think you are it all

But you are just as small

As you're beliefs

 

Come here baby

You lost little lamb

I will coat you with sugar

All over and put you to bed

 

And when you have 

bad dreams, nightmares

You will sink into the walls 

you've made for all of us

 

So don't fear 

your world it is just 

as a part of us 

as you

 

Your world

Your world

Your world.

Surviving Angel #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #angel #God

 

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Surviving Angel

Verse

How can I take in 

Such things 

that don't seem real

What am I to learn from this

Or grow as it feels

How can you grow 

from something so awful

How can you feel

proud being one 

of the ones left standing

Chorus

Am I the strength 

or have I always been 

to walk down this surreal path 

as the surviving Angel

Verse

Please tell me

Everything will be okay

I've been strong

Not to break down 

or cried to all the pain

Around me

It's so unreal

Chorus

Am I the strength 

or have I always been 

to walk down this surreal path 

as the surviving Angel

Verse

Please take me

Where I'm supposed to be

No one should have to 

survive and feel this pain 

Home

Home

The surviving Angel

Bridge

Please tell me where to walk

where to go

what am I to do

Who should I serve

Under God

The surviving angel

It's so unreal 

outside of it 

and maybe in the home

Chorus

Verse

Come make it real

Come make it right

So I can know

I'm on the right path

my journey

Am I the path

That God has led

To walk down

Through hell

For all

The surviving angel

Chorus

Am I the strength 

or have I always been 

to walk down this surreal path 

as the surviving Angel

Surviving angel

Surviving angel 

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The Collection 2020 #love #spreading #victims #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

  My Open Doors Collection contribution as a gun shot survivor victim taken down with it to sexual abuse.

My Gun Shot Survivor Song during Coronavirus out around Thanksgiving.

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Human Trafficking: The Beginning of It in a Song #newsong "Till Then" #rectified #humantrafficking #sexualassault #God #lorijeanfinnila

 After initial attempts to be taken down in NYC, I ended up home, where it appeared to have started. 

Having a best friend refer me to a house where I could rent a room, druggings, creeps in the middle of the night in my bed, and then eventually turned to fondling. I had to desperately try to escape acts that I had no idea where they were coming from, of what I now believe to be steps toward human trafficking. I didn't know about the romanticize step and it wasn't easy to get me past this one to pass me on to others. Feeling desperate and alone I gave in to isolation where I had no support from family and friends or authorities and even had to question their involvement at times being told to go to non reputable bars when I went for help of being drugged by juvenile cops - learning later they were trying to get me pregnant at this point after so many attempts to get me to go meet other people through romanticizing.  

I was eventually put in a room with no lock on the door. My phone line was wired into another man's room without my permission. That's when the drugging and fondling started. It moved to a hospital visit from there where the man was an EMT. The abuse continued through hospitals when I'd cry for help that I was being drugged. It ended up my car was crushed and dragged down the road with me in it post to a death threat wired audio message in my trunk 'Saying I was going to die' like my father. A nurse had told me he was worried about me before he died that summer. He had just told me I was safe with this EMT when I questioned why would he want me to move and live with him? The landlord had been giving me strange scary looks. My friend who referred me to him had changed her attitude toward me as well. 

When you know what kinds of things the human traffickers do it makes it so much easier to piece together. The EMT in the house where I rented the room had been telling me he picks up homeless and/or referring to weak people and put them in mental institutions and would I like him to do that to me. 'No' of course I said astonished. Then he came by later after my dad died when I was drugged badly with an ambulance as I crawled down the hall to just make putting a latch up so he couldn't get me. You could hear he was very annoyed then left. 

Where my ex husband had been known for his bold, wild, brash behavior, even towards me for leaving, there was question to his involvement toward revenge in vengeance, especially after my mom told me he was there at a hospital when I was in a slight coma being abused nine years later when this was happening to me after not seeing him or having contact - the judge ruling him abusive at our court held divorce proceeding. The more I learn the more I educate myself on the cunning procedures of human trafficking. 

My latest song "Till Then" sings about the time before God when all is believed for everyone and rectified. 

I ran so far and fought so hard up to the point of being fully taken down to rape. I had to run another 20 years from those at highest points in the business you can imagine from doctors, authorities, attempts in hospitals and homes.

Clip of "Till Then"

I will share more as I learn and figure out. 

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