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| Image by Ri Butov from Pixabay |
No one ever told me not to trust your gut feeling
Of love, safety, and no harm
No one ever told me those I love
would harm me in so many ways unimaginable
I would never be able to trust anyone again
No one ever told me
I wasn’t going to have to learn
to love someone in a new way.
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| Oh My Heart |
Yvonne has saved my left that I didn’t realize I had given up on. I can breathe once again.
Review:
I’ve known Yvonne for many years. Through all our struggles we’ve connected. I would like to thank Yvonne for being my butterfly, saving me from giving up on my life of written words where I fight medically to use my eyes, leaving me this message as the butterfly has left its message to her to keep listening to literature instead of giving up on the words altogether. Her beautiful gift here showed me you can have the gift of words through voice, which is so poignantly put together by her here as well as the performance of the narrator. I will continue my life with words instead listening to them with the full effect of the written word allowing me to breathe and live my life as I should, around literature which will desperately save my life once again. I will love Yvonne forever because of this extremely thoughtful gift she has so selflessly shared. And Yvonne, doctors can only give diagnoses not miracles. You’ve already created a miracle. Let’s see what other miracles you have to share.
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| Image by Nanne Tiggelman from Pixabay |
Women Who Have Courage to Die For Their Dreams (continued)
I think of my last day as I know of it
how surreal and close the sounds will be
how close the sounds once were
I can’t help but think of this day a lot
reflecting on the past
I know now how close it is to me
and I can see how fast time flies
because of this we can’t stop it
all we can do is fill it up
with as much life as possible to make it longer
Length brings me hope, excitement
happiness to a fuller life
beauty that is beautiful
even if it’s not perfect
Beauty in the eye of the beholder
brings much relief
there is hope for all
we are all special
Beauty that is distorted on purpose
to show meaning
new beauty, a new meaning to beauty
a new purpose to this beauty
New originalities are introduced
perhaps to extend humanity in time
of so much hope needed
as we continue this cycle
New forms of life are introduced showing the strength in the freshness of the natural-all things natural take over as people awaitingly with their scattered opinions let it take over prominently, pleasantly, reassuringly
I will be visiting the water
so surreal as it will be
in its beauty and totally
alone out of my comfort zone
As I would feel the end of my days
not really knowing the comparison
but so perfect as it would be
so out of my control where I need to be
My hope is to have happiness
a happiness that only this place can give
a happiness out of my control
where the most happiness is
where I don’t feel so closed in
trapped like an animal
treated like an animal
feeling like an animal
trapped in a land
of no chance
as I’ve heard it expressed
so many times before
So sad, so sad
the tears still so easily come
to my eyes at the thought of all this
trapped in a land of no chance or opportunity
no beauty that I can see that I would love
I love the ocean with its power
out of anyone’s control
as it moves
as it wishes
the best and worst things
have happened to me there:
hit for the first time
made love for the first time
had my first wedding
will probably die here
I can bring new happiness to myself here conjuring with its power
allowing it to take me over, this new place, this new place of hope
I can dream of a new home
with peace and freedom
I can take beautiful photos
as I’ve dreamed of
if God will allow for me to make it here
and hopefully over and over again
It’s about women who have courage
to die for their dreams
Why focus on the women
who have been hurt in some way?
How would I get through my day?
How would I know I’m not alone?
How would I have known
maybe I am one of the ones
who will get past this this time?
When we have the strength
to show what we’ve accomplished
which forces society to take us as capable individuals and give us the respect
with no heavy bearing on our bodies
that we usually have to feel everyday
when we are not at our best in this place
that helps others move forward
Yes you will get that second glance
at these circumstances
as long as we all continue to show
our accomplishments when we can.
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| Image by Pete Linforth from Pixabay |
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| Image by TheoRivierenlaan from Pixabay |
How many times I’ve been told I have delusions
Even with the authenticity of my words
Aah though the tundras are lonely
I will stand tall and proud
I will share it through my written word
With no blameworthiness
Using all my resourcefulness
Aah blue
The color
Why does that mean so much to me
Is it the strength it brings
The bold stand to let me break loose
As I’m waking to a new moment in my life
Bringing us all together as one
I trust when it’s right to do this
Trust I’m in the right place
And never wasted my time.
The end.
Thanks to Rebecca Campbell for her Starseed Oracle deck for inspiration.
