Update "I'm Not Your Normal Girl" #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #podcast #update

I updated this song for an upcoming podcast. I hope you like it.

 Verse

I tell you to listen to me

I'm not normal

I need to know where I'm at in you

I need to feel my better half with you

I'm not your normal girl

I'm scrambled up in pain

I'm curled up holding myself

tight in my bed

I told you I'm in pain

I told you I'm not your normal girl

I'm sorry I cry 

I'm not normal

I need to do something

To be my equal

Even if I'm gonna die

I lose my breath

When I cry so hard

Telling you I can't live up to that you want

Trying to express myself to this

I see you get frustrated with me

I end up more crazy

you seem more scary

I now see myself by myself

talking to myself to this

I'm so very sad

my heart aches

I'm in pain

Why am I so emotionally scrambled

I see your love, feel your warmth

yet I know so deep inside 

you just want to use me

I'm sorry

I cry I'm not normal

I need to do something

To be my equal

Even if I'm gonna die

I'm not your normal girl......

"I'm In Heat" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Verse

You want to salsa

Instead of have a conversation

It gets too heated

I always have to draw the line

Chorus

I'm in heat

There's no way out

Can't get in a word in

It's too late for me

Verse

I always end up walking away

With no resolution in mind

I start from square one

Back to the beginning again

Will this never end

Chorus

Verse

I always have to draw the line

to a new scenario 

to the same circumstances

I keep running from

 I keep on looking anyway

"Gandiva's Bow" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Photo courtesy Glorious Hinduism

Verse

He's the one

that makes me stop and think

Though I don't usually do this

give anyone a minute of mine

I may love Van Gogh

But this one puts himself together

Like God has had 

a good day with Gandiva's bow

He skin may bronzy glisten

He may fly like Superman

Making my mind wild and strong

But I would probably still

wrestle him to the ground

And when if his presence 

made his way towards me

I may be closed in a cage

But I feel I can bust out

Forbidden Love #albumcover for No, No, No #release #2022 #lorijeanfinnila

 I'm working on picking out a cover for this single release love song. If I can't find a hot one of myself then I'm choosing between other artwork. Some samples are:

Hot fire for the steamy feeling that you are having a hard time denying.

Photo by Pavel Danilyuk from Pexels

With it having a Latin accent you have to have the dripping honey.

Photo by Jacek Jan Skorupski from Pexels

Our romanticizing is as strong as the act. (probably wouldn't be able to use this one where it's not me and can get confusing)

Photo by cottonbro from Pexels

This is like Oh my God!

Photo by Adrian Odogwu from Pexels

Nostalgic romanticism. (love this one the best)

Photo by Ibolya Toldi from Pexels

How Fast Love Happens #nonono #rewrite #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #forbiddenlove

It's amazing how fast things happen: the first glance, word spoken, simple touch. We know inside this is love. It's meant to be. I was inspired to update this song by the actress's line in a movie titled "The Princess and The Marine" 'I was born in the wrong place.'

Igor Shubin Photography

Verse

I say no though 

that's not what I mean

I want you, when I capture 

your presence near me

 Chorus

I can't do or think what  I want to

I was meant to never be this way

I was born in the wrong place

I was taught to say no

Verse

Time doesn't seem to have a place

My mind keeps coming back to you

Your words, your breath

The way I watch you move

Chorus

I can't do or think what  I want to

I was meant to never be this way

I was born in the wrong place

I was taught to say no

Verse 

I shudder when I see you leave

Knowing I'll never see you again

 Our worlds are miles apart

Yet I feel you so close when I see your eyes

I don't see any walls that holds us apart

Bridge

I can't do what I want to

I was promised I would never do

Never thinking on my own

Standing all alone

 Chorus

I can't do or think what  I want to

I was meant to never be this way

I was born in the wrong place

I was taught to say no

repeat

No, no, no, no, no, no ,no

Repeat

Oooooo

"Singing You Lullabies" #newsong #singersongwriter #lorijeanfinnila

 

I wrote this for my daughter whom my ex felt he didn't want and I was too young to make the decision at 17 he felt, so he set me up and killed our baby in her second trimester. I think of her every day. Some men don't realize this is our baby; it has no connection of how we feel for them.

Illustration courtesy of clip art library.

Verse

I’d climb so high with you

watching you swing in a swing

cherish your every move

Please don’t ever think

I never thought of these things with you

Chorus

I dream of singing you lullabies

that will bring you comfort

for the rest of your life

though you may not have heard me

I was singing them to you anyway

Verse

I think of them every day

as though you are here

though you never grew up

my mind can’t go that far

with this

Chorus

I dream of singing you lullabies

that will bring you comfort

for the rest of your life

though you may not have heard me

I was singing them to you anyway

Verse

I see your progression in life

I relate to your every level of thrive

I’ve been putting my effort to this

You have grown so far

in your mind

Bridge

I’m so proud

I’ve ben a part of this

You’re the biggest 

person I’ve ever seen

You know you’re the whole world around me

Chorus

I dream of singing you lullabies

that will bring you comfort

for the rest of your life

though you may not have heard me

I was singing them to you anyway

"Right Before My Eyes" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 This is from "My Life's Journey" here that I changed the name and put a clip of it here after practicing the recording for my podcast for this song "Right Before My Eyes." 

This is for the children that watch their mothers die, or are still sitting by their side while they try to recover from abuse.

Image by Jess Foami from Pixabay 

Clip of "Right Before My Eyes" at Google Drive and at Soundcloud. Watch for the podcast coming up soon at audible lori jean finnila.

Dancing In the Clouds #lorijeanfinnila #newsong #singersongwriter

Photo by Pcdazero at Pixabay.

Verse

It's hard to believe

There's been a world like

What we've been in (I have to keep slapping myself.)

To feel free 

Able to be alone

With you so close

Right next to me

Dancing with the clouds

It's still amazing to me

Chorus

I was your hero

I couldn't walk 

in bigger shoes

Or climb any higher

Dancing in the clouds

Verse

My mind sits in the clouds

As images cast many

Emotions in my mind

Never forgetting

You close to me

Bridge

Laying here

Dancing in the clouds

Dancing with the clouds

A world that's made huge

Before my eyes

Chorus

Verse

I can't wait till next time

We dance with the clouds

I look so forward to these times

When you and I were the closest

When I felt the strongest

Bridge

Show me a life 

 bursting with hope

A world to change us

Bringing hope

I was as high as I could be

Chorus

"How Lucky I Am" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 How Lucky I Am

Image by StockSnap from Pixabay 

I count one two three 

when I wake up

feeling grateful to see the sun

I look at my pleasurable surroundings

I warm myself

before I move

cherish each step I take

each time I raise my arm

take a drink, one more day

I will plan my time ahead

see how much I can fit

when I start to see black

I’ll still be grateful

that I can sleep tight in bed

I won’t think if there’s one more day

because I’m so tired

I don’t know to think of this

How lucky I am

how lucky I am

how lucky I am

to be lost in such a beautiful space.

repeat

"My Life's Journey" #newsong #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

My Life’s Journey

Photo by Daria Nekipelova from Pexels

I can take your hand

while you cry

not knowing what to do

I still stay by your side

Your hour is long

but I won’t mind

I won’t even know the time

that I’m here

I see your pain

I feel your heart beat

so fast out of your chest

as though you will die

but you still breathe

perhaps you are like a flower

that ascends to the sky

yet never dies

just keeps growing

right before my eyes

please don’t leave me mom

like I’ve seen you almost do so many times

my times with you I don’t even count

i just lay on my side and wait for you to awake

that will be my life journey