Updated "The Veil of Light" song I wrote for my son. #abusesurvivor

Image by Merlin Lightpainting from Pixabay

 The pain never stops of the separation of the two of us having to leave him in 2011' running from abuse.

Surreal Moment #surrealmoment #abusesurvivor #lorijeanfinnila

For those who can’t have Thanksgiving #humantrafficking #sextrafficking

Dancing In the Clouds #dancingintheclouds #lorijeanfinnila #singer

Hemiparesis On My Right Side #lorijeanfinnila #selfphysicaltherapy #yoga #healingjourney #livingpositivelytoday #hemiparesis

My Shifted Jaw From Abuse #lorijeanfinnila #abuse

How to Heal Your Nervous System When You’re Overwhelmed By it All

 

Youth Raped Around The Same Time of My Abuse #abuse #newhampshire #lorijeanfinnila

https://www.yahoo.com/news/trial-youth-center-worker-accused-225049627.html 

“I’m Thinking Again” Out Now #release #lorijeanfinnila #domesticviolencesong #easylistening #singer

 

Reading From My Book "The Purple Sun: A Poetic Journey Through Domestic Violence" #lorijeanfinnila #womenauthors #literature

 

2 New Song Releases for Nov. 20, 2024 "I'm Thinking Again" and "8 Hours I Wait" #lorijeanfinnila #songreleases #singer

 I have two songs going out through Symphonic Distribution this year around Thanksgiving, Nov. 20, 2024. "I'm Thinking Again" about domestic violence and "8 Hours I Wait" about human trafficking. Please see video clips of these songs here on this blog not too far off from this post.

Photos from Pixabay.com.

Song Lyrics:

8 Hours I Wait

8 hours I wait

for someone to see me crawl

I want to breathe again

I wait to breathe again

28 more days for this fortune

to take place

that I’m so destined to right now

without anyone

8 hours I wait

for someone to take me from this place

to see where I’ve fallen

where I’ve done no wrong

8 hours I wait

8 hours I wait

for you to take me from this place

so dark so dreary no thought 

no choice to this theory

8 I wait 

8 hours I wait

for someone to take me from this place

to see where I’ve fallen

where I’ve done no wrong

hours I wait

8 hours I wait

from this place

that took me so far

from this time with lace

that hurt me so badly

29, 28 days more

to this haven supposed brazen

to be brought upon me

8 hours I wait for my fate

to my next place 

of no one seeing me for who I am

just a runaway

with no rhyme no reason

is what they tell me I am

So I’ll set here 8 more hours

29 more days then 28 where I’m safe

though the mats are hard

there’s peace and quiet in my mind

8 hours I wait

for someone to take me from this place

to see where I’ve fallen

where I’ve done no wrong

hours I wait

8 hours I wait

for someone to take me from this place

that took me so far

from this time with lace

8 I wait

8 hours I wait

8 hours I wait for someone to take me from this place

“I’m Thinking Again”

Don’t know why I’m thinking

It’s sick if you really think of it

It’s mad for me to stop

And waste so much time

Thinking about you

You left me bruised

You left me torn

I had nowhere to turn

I had nowhere to run

You kept me down

So all alone

I shouldn’t even be

thinking about you

I sit here on the couch

Sad with tears

Alone in my place 

I drink when

there’s no reason

I’m all alone in this place

You left me bruised

You left me torn

I had nowhere to turn

I had nowhere to run

I shouldn’t be thinking about you

When I see you 

I shouldn't want you

But somehow 

my heart aches

Even though you are

standing here right in front of me

Putting me down the same old way

I know pain is only temporary

My heart would heal someday

I just needs to take a chance

Take a breath and walk away

You left me bruised

You left me torn

I had nowhere to turn

I had nowhere to run

You kept me down

So all alone

Maybe I've learned

Finally one more time

Not turn around

When you make you way toward me

I’m thinking again

Again and again and again

I’m thinking again

I’m thinking again

I’m thinking again

My eBook in the Library at OverDrive #thepurplesun #lorijeanfinnila #womenauthors #poetrybook #domesticviolence

https://www.overdrive.com/media/11258558/the-purple-sun through the Libby App.

A Bit On the Proof of My Book #thepurplesun #womenauthors #lorijeanfinnila

 

Panty Party #newlyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singer #lyrcist

 

Photo from pexels-carlos-santiago-421908853-19276104. Song in video Putting Up a Brand New Trajectory by Lori Jan Finnila.

Panty Party

Verse

I don’t want to feel bad

From you telling me what to do

Cry from you hitting me

Feeling bad for doing something for me

Chorus

I’d rather be dancing in my panties

With nobody beside me

All alone

It’s my time

It’s a party

Verse

I don’t want to clean for you

I don’t want to cook for you

Wash your clothes, especially you’re underwear

Be your slave like in a Nazi camp

Verse

You can’t touch me if I tell you no

Rape me in that cold day

Take advantage of my tears 

Tell me you love me when you don’t 

Bridge

I don’t have to fight your wars

Just because I think you should

Half the time you don’t know 

What you’re talking about

Chorus

I’d rather be dancing in my panties

With nobody beside me

All alone

It’s my time

It’s a party

Panty party

No men invited

My Potential Human Trafficking Story #humantrafficking #lorijeanfinnila

At YouTube

Marriott, Wyndham, and Hilton Problems with Sex Trafficking #sextrafficking #hotels

 

https://youtu.be/TtjhHYi95rQ?si=N3aVHcVrQuXRLGxf

Mom’s Immigrant Abuse #lorijeanfinnila #sexualabuse #westfordma #immigrants

 

Photo from Women’s Health.gov.

My mother was told while I was tied to our cellar stairs as a toddler that it would be good for her to spend time with, a cop and his friend by them in our small town of Westford, MA in the 60’s. She was an illiterate Portuguese woman with a 4th grade education and with only a green card and sexually abused at 14 in Portugal by her uncle being tied to a chair. Imagine.

 

Clip 8 Hours I Wait #lorijeanfinnila #easylistening #loungemusic #musicrelease

Out November 20, 2024 through Symphonic Distribution.

I'm Thinking Again by Lori Jean Finnila #lorijeanfinnila #musicrelease #easylistening #loungemusic

Out November 20, 2024 through Symphonic Distribution.

Beginning To Feel the Flow Again #lorijeanfinnila #hope #healingjourney #selfphysicaltherapy

 You know abuse might have taken away my hands to write long, my body to move as gracefully in my dance, my mind slow to remember at times, but my body is beginning to feel the flow again: there is hope.