On FM Radio Again in Australia Sunday #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #australia #radio

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So excited!!!!! Valley FM 89.5 

The Collection 2020 #love #spreading #victims #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

  My Open Doors Collection contribution as a gun shot survivor victim taken down with it to sexual abuse.

My Gun Shot Survivor Song during Coronavirus out around Thanksgiving.

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Human Trafficking: The Beginning of It in a Song #newsong "Till Then" #rectified #humantrafficking #sexualassault #God #lorijeanfinnila

 After initial attempts to be taken down in NYC, I ended up home, where it appeared to have started. 

Having a best friend refer me to a house where I could rent a room, druggings, creeps in the middle of the night in my bed, and then eventually turned to fondling. I had to desperately try to escape acts that I had no idea where they were coming from, of what I now believe to be steps toward human trafficking. I didn't know about the romanticize step and it wasn't easy to get me past this one to pass me on to others. Feeling desperate and alone I gave in to isolation where I had no support from family and friends or authorities and even had to question their involvement at times being told to go to non reputable bars when I went for help of being drugged by juvenile cops - learning later they were trying to get me pregnant at this point after so many attempts to get me to go meet other people through romanticizing.  

I was eventually put in a room with no lock on the door. My phone line was wired into another man's room without my permission. That's when the drugging and fondling started. It moved to a hospital visit from there where the man was an EMT. The abuse continued through hospitals when I'd cry for help that I was being drugged. It ended up my car was crushed and dragged down the road with me in it post to a death threat wired audio message in my trunk 'Saying I was going to die' like my father. A nurse had told me he was worried about me before he died that summer. He had just told me I was safe with this EMT when I questioned why would he want me to move and live with him? The landlord had been giving me strange scary looks. My friend who referred me to him had changed her attitude toward me as well. 

When you know what kinds of things the human traffickers do it makes it so much easier to piece together. The EMT in the house where I rented the room had been telling me he picks up homeless and/or referring to weak people and put them in mental institutions and would I like him to do that to me. 'No' of course I said astonished. Then he came by later after my dad died when I was drugged badly with an ambulance as I crawled down the hall to just make putting a latch up so he couldn't get me. You could hear he was very annoyed then left. 

Where my ex husband had been known for his bold, wild, brash behavior, even towards me for leaving, there was question to his involvement toward revenge in vengeance, especially after my mom told me he was there at a hospital when I was in a slight coma being abused nine years later when this was happening to me after not seeing him or having contact - the judge ruling him abusive at our court held divorce proceeding. The more I learn the more I educate myself on the cunning procedures of human trafficking. 

My latest song "Till Then" sings about the time before God when all is believed for everyone and rectified. 

I ran so far and fought so hard up to the point of being fully taken down to rape. I had to run another 20 years from those at highest points in the business you can imagine from doctors, authorities, attempts in hospitals and homes.

Clip of "Till Then"

I will share more as I learn and figure out. 

USO Wonderful to have for #militaryspouse. #loweshomeimprovement #Uso #lorijeanfinnila #singer #portlandoregon

"Cries Too Far" #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #fate #never #measured

 I came up with this from a few songs I've already written but not professionally distributed, "Those Unseen," "Am I Awake," and a new one I had been working on. I had originally used a loop from Martin Minor at Minor2Go music for "Those Unseen." I like how it goes to this as well where I can just change the pitch for a chorus. He did the loop so beautifully. I have to look for it again tomorrow.

These flowers are withered but they've learned to grow hard.

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Cries Too Far

Verse

I hear cries and screams

I said pray, hold on

beg or plead

look far outside comfort

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Verse

We fight to keep this quiet

why do we do this

Our cries are never seen

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Verse

Our body becomes a machine to reconstruct

Our mind never learned

to heal or cope

Bridge

Injuries become a measurement in weight

when the cries come up

to be determined its fate

It's too late

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Cries too far from the mind

Verse

Those unseen are left behind

far from the mind

scars are seen

way to late

Our cries are too far from the mind

Their fate never measured

Chorus

Cries too far

from the mind

their fate never

measured

in weight

Cries too far from the mind

Cries too far

Lyrics and Recording to #newsong "Underwater" by #lorijeanfinnila #convulsions #underwater

 I was thought of as incomprehensible ever since a toddler because of my convulsions. I sit here today and cry from missing my mom and dad's funeral running from the hectic in my life.

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Underwater at SoundCloud

Lyrics

Verse

I saw you looking at me

So peculiar

You thought I didn't see

My way to you

My way here

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times

Verse

Mother would sleep and not see

Father would panic frantically

When he'd see my face on the cover

Of a rock n roll album

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times

Verse

Dad would still buy the records

Mom would still play the music

As I plucked for you

Stared at you

Barely speaking

Bridge

I knew the chords I was playing

Even though they made no sense to you

I was riding down the hall to save alla

In my red fire engine

My rocking horse was the last to know

You'd tell me mom not to go so fast

I'd rock more and end up out the window

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times

Underwater

I looked underwater

To you so many times

I tried to tell you I was really here

I can still hear the doctors saying

I'm underwater

Underwater to you

Chorus

Though I looked underwater

I could hear everything around me

I tried to tell you mom

So many times

The Best Place #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #hot

 

The Best Place

I'm hot

my mind is not

in the right place

You're not in my vicinity

real close to me

Chorus

I'm not in

the best place

I can be

right now

for you and me

Verse

I feel alone

most of the time

all around me

even when you're home

Chorus

Verse

I feel you should talk

or come touch me

I feel I need to be connected more

so you can see how I feel

Bridge

I don't want to leave

but these feelings

leave me to such a place

away from here

Chorus

I'm not in

the best place

I can be

right now

for you and me

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#saveourchildren

Redo of song "My Man" #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #myman

A song that I was so inclined to redo!!! 

"So Grateful" #newsong #lyrics #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #grateful

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"So Grateful" by Lori Jean Finnila

Verse

I look down at my boots below

as I felt my hands

touch the floor inside of me

remembering me on a floor just like this

on drugs

Chorus

I felt so grateful

as I anguished of that time

to have a home

as my after thought

away from it all

verse

My head would lift

in the dark, my groggy mind

to see things I shouldn't know

as girls disappear right before my eyes

Chorus

Verse

I cringe still today

of the sights

of the moments in my life

the fear still remains

Bridge

There's so much more to this

the girl's hand I held

still haunts me to this day

when I saw her go down

her body shook like I've known

Chorus

I felt so grateful

as I anguished of that time

to have a home

as my after thought

away from it all